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Sunday, October 31, 2004

Sanhi

Ano kaya ang tunay na sanhi
Ng aking kawalang kasiyahan?
O binibini, ikaw ay aking
tinatanong, "Alam mo ba?"

Kung sakaling ito'y iyong
Nalalaman, pakisabi sa 'kin
May ilan na rin akong mga
Naiisip, tulad ng:

Dahil ito ay aking kagustuhan
Sapagkat ito'y aking pinili
O di kaya sadya lang ako'y
Malungkutin, isang bugnutin

Mahal ang tunay na panahon
Ngunit hindi ako manghihinayang
Ubusin ito, malaman ko lamang
Ang sanhi ng aking kalungkutan

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Tungo sa Katiwasayan

Tandang-tanda ko pa
Kung paano ko sinubukang
Ikaw ay aking makalimutan.
Hindi ko kayang amining
Ako'y nagkamali
Sa aking pagkilos.

Ano ba ang nangyari sa 'tin?
'Bat nawala ang dati nating pagmamahalan?
Bakit mo ako pinagpalit sa kanya?
O, andami kong mga katanungan.
Diyos ko, sagutin Niyo po ako.
Sa dami-dami ng aking mga suliranin
Tila tanging ito ang hindi ko makakayanan.

Pananampalata, patibayin mo aking mga tuhod;
Pag-asa, palakasin ang aking dibdib;
Pag-ibig, nawa'y magsilbi kang ilaw,
Ilaw na papawi sa nananaig na kadiliman sa malungkot kong buhay.
Buuin ninyo ang nasirang nilalang na ito
Upang ako po ay makapamuhay sa katiwasayan.

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Savings Account

Ngayong araw na ito, nagdeposito ako ng P33,300.00 sa Equitable PCI Bank -- Aurora Branch. Winidraw ko ang lahat ng deposito ko sa Veterans Bank -- Crame Branch, P31,371.86. Plano ko ring makatipid ng P10,260.00 o 90% ng akong buong baon sa darating na ikalawang semestre. Ngayon ko lang narealize na maaari pala akong makaipon ng P40,000.00 sa loob ng dalawang taon. Balak kong makaipon ng P100,000.00 pagdating ng panahong gagradweyt ako o sa katapusan ng aking ikaapat na taon sa kolehiyo, anumang mauna sa dalawa.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Ang pangako, tinutupad

Heto na ako ngayon, muling nagbabalik mula sa aking pananahimik. Kung inyong natatandaan, ipinangako kong magbabalik ako. At dahil sembreak ko na, narito na ako. Masaya ang bakasyon! Mas masaya sana kung matataas ang mga marka ko. Hayaan niyo, magtatanda na ako. Si Joel ay magbabalik na sa kanyang kahenyuhan. Tignan ko lang kung ano ang mangyayari sa mundo. Biro lang iyan. At dahil tapos na ang semestre, marapat lamang akong magnilay-nilay sa mga nangyari sa aking buhay. Gusto ko nga palang banggitin ang makapagpagong-buhay na pangyayari sa akin.

Monday, October 11, 2004

Dasal ng Pasasalmat

Diyos ko, salamat po sa lahat ng mga biyayang pinagkaloob Ninyo sa akin. Kung wala Kayo, hindi po magiging posible ang aking tagumpay. Pasensya na po Kayo sa aking pagkukulang. Salamat po at maaga pa lang ay tinuruan Ninyo ako ng leksyon. Masasabi ko pong lubos akong natuto. Sana po ay lagi Ninyong ipadama ang Inyong presensiya upang ako'y hindi makalimot. Sa Inyong tulong, sanay hindi ko na ulitin ang aking mga pagkakamali. Maraming salamat po. Mabuhay Kayo!

Thursday, October 07, 2004

Para sa 'yo

Akala mo, mahal kita
Akala mo, gusto kita
Pero ang hindi mo alam
Totoo ang akala mo

Sana nandito ka
Sana kaibigan kita
Nahiya pa kasi ako
Nagmukha akong gago

Ang hirap mag-isip
Kung pwede nga,
gusto kong matulog
habambuhay

Sawa na ako sa ganito
Walang biro
Nais kong magbago
Para sa 'yo

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Malamang

Hindi ko matanto
Ang 'king pagkabigo
Hindi ko maabot
Ang nakatatakot

Gagawain ko na
Ayokong magdusa
Minsan, ako'y tanga
Naglalahong bula

Mukhang masama
Ang aking ginawa
Ngunit bakit ganun
Gusto ko ng balun

Monday, September 20, 2004

Tired

I'm tired
Exhausted
Enervated
Reduced

I've tried
But to no avail
I'm dried
To my bones

The plate shines
As the golden sun
It bewilders me
'Till infinity

My body's down
Can't get up
Stays down
Forever

Confusion reigns
Somebody help
'Coz I can't do it
Alone

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Mula libog hanggang sa pagiging walang-imik

May pagkakataon na ba sa iyong buhay na ika'y nakagawa ng katangahan dahil sa 'yong kalibugan?
Sa akin, oo.
Sinadya mo ba 'yon o hindi?
Hindi.
Bakit hindi mo ito pinigilang mangyari?
Dahil natural ito.
Paano mo naman nasabing likas ito?
Dahil hindi ko kinundesyon ang aking sarili rito.
Masasabi mo bang pagmamahal ito?
Hindi.
Bakit naman?
Kasi, hindi ko man lang siya nakausap.
Hindi mo siya man lamang nakaututang dila! Torpe ka ba?
Oo.
Bakla ka ba?
Hindi siguro.
Hindi ka sigurado?
Hindi.
Paano mo naman nasabing hindi ka bakla?
Mayroon akong burat; lalaki ako. Hindi ako nalilibugan sa mga larawan ng mga lalaki; hindi ako bading.
Binabae ka ba?
Sa ilang bagay.
Magbigay ka ng halimbawa.
Hinahayaan ko lang masaktan ang aking sarili sa aking hangaring makiwas ng gulo.
'Bat ayaw mo ng gulo?
Kasi ayaw kong masaktan.
E hindi ba normal lang ang makaramdam ng sakit?
Normal nga.
Kung gayon, di-sapat ang iyong dahilan.
Tama ka.

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Nothing remains

You were once special to me;
you were once such a beauty
But now, you're ordinary
You are just like all of them
Opportunity wasted
only by someone like you
You are nobody to me
I don't even know you
Many others will give back
the love you unrequited

Hardin ng Kalungkutan

Ang iyong mga salita
ay naglaho, nawala
sa aking mga palad
tumutulo ang hubad
na katawan mo ay di
kailanman magwawagi
Nananahan ang puso
ko sa mabahong dilubyo
Huwag akong pahirapan
Hardin ng Kalungkutan

Nababalot ng lamig
ang aking mga bisig
Nagtatago ang mukha
Ang hirap maging dukha
Kinukubli ang ulo
Kulay pula ang dugo
Pagod na 'ko sa ganito
Parating gumuguho
ang aking kasiyahan
Hardin ng Kalungkutan

'Till forever

I don't like your kiss
if it means goodbye.

I don't want your smile
if it's just made up.

I don't wish for you
if you're not for real.

'Cause I want the real you;
'cause you don't have to change.

I'll stay
with you
'till forever.

Monday, September 06, 2004

A Learning Experience

Only a few days are left
Until the semester ends
This is our last hurrah
We should give it our all

My love is not by my side
She left me and went to hide
'Cause she found out that I am mad
I can't help my feeling sad

I do not regret it
Nothing can ever change it
It was a learning experience
That wasn't without conscience

Friday, August 27, 2004

Mga Tala Ukol sa Paglaganap ng mga Kantang may Dalawang Pagpapakahulugan

Hindi kaila sa ating mga Pilipino, lalung-lalo na sa mga taga-Maynila, ang paglaganap ng mga malalaswang kanta. Haay, naku! Wala na ata tayong iuunlad. Ang ating mga kababayan ay tila kuntento na sa Entertainment na baliko.

Mga kabayan, gumising na nga tayo! Hindi pa ba kayo nagsasawa sa karumihan ang ating kapaligiran. Puno na nga ng mga tambak ng basura ang ating paligid. Sana huwag na natin ito dagdagan. Tumigil na tayo sa pakikinig ng mga walang kakwenta-kwentang tugtugin.

Mahal ko ang Pilipinas. Huwag tayong umasa sa mga dayuhan pagdating sa pagpapaunlad ng ating bansa. Ang ikasusulong natin ay nasa ating mga kamay. Isipin natin ang ating mga magiging anak. Dapat tayong magsilbing mabuting halimbawa sa kanila.

Kung mayroon tayong dapat gawain, isakilos na natin ito agad. Hindi tayo dapat na magpatumpik-tumpik pa. Mayroong magandang bukas na nag-iintay sa ating lahat. Marapat lang nating manalig sa Maykapal, at siguradong hinding-hindi niya tayo pababayaan. Ang tunay na lakas ay nasa sambayanang Pilipino.

Mabuhay!

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Gising pa ako

Gabing-gabi na at gising pa ko. Unang araw ng pasukan bukas. Nagmisa nga pala ako kaninang alas siete ng gabi. May asong pumasok sa simbahan. Natuwa nga ako kasi ang lambing nung aso. Yung paring nagsermon ay bagong pari pa lang. Good luck po sa inyo. At tulad ng karaniwan nilang ginagawa, naki-alam siya sa pamahalaan sa homili. Bakit ba sila (ang kaparian) ganyan? Hindi ba nila naiintindihan na ang kanilang ginagawa ay labag sa saligang-batas? Sige, matutulog na ako.

Saturday, June 26, 2004

PMHS ang pinipili ko

Sa simula, dalawang orgs ang gusto kong salihan: UP PMHS at UP ABM. At dahil crammed na nga ang sched ko, kinailangan kong mamili ng iisa lamang. Ang pinili ko ay UP PMHS. Bakit? Una, una silang nakilala ko. Ikalawa, una akong nakatambay sa lugar nila. Ikatlo, mas ramdam ko ang pakiramdam na pamilya sa PMHS. Ikaapat, masyadong matagal ang tambay hours na kailangan sa ABM. Ikalima at pinakamahalaga, mukhang mas magdedevelop ako as a person sa UP PMHS.

Monday, June 14, 2004

May natutunan ako

Nagsimba ako kahapon. At dahil Corpus Christi ang ipinagdiwang bukas, ang sermon ay tungkol sa tamang pag-uugali sa loob ng simbahan. Ngayon ko lang nalamang dapat pala'y hindi tinatanggap ang katawan ni Kristo o magkomunion kapag may mabigat kang kasalanan o mortal sin. Sa katunayan, sinabi na iyan ng aking nakakatandang kapatid na si Ate Nadia. Hindi sa hindi ako naniwala sa kanya, kundi nais kong makumpirma ito muna. Kaya noong oras na ng pangungumunion, hindi nga ako nagkomunion. Wala akong magagawa kung ganoon ang patakaran ng simbahan. 'Yan tuloy, gusto ko nang mangumpisal.

Sunday, June 13, 2004

Ang taas

UPCM Admissions Information: Applicants AY 2003-2004
ADMISSION POLICIES
The Committee on Admissions has the authority to determine the criteria of selection and to recommend who from among the applicants are qualified students. Selection is based on intellectual and personal preparedness of the applicant irrespective of sex, religious belief and political affiliation.
GENERAL ADMISSION POLICIES
- Only applicants of good moral character shall be admitted.
- Only applicants who have never been convicted of a crime shall be admitted.
- Only applicants with good academic records shall be considered for admission.
- Only applicants with the personality and attitudes considered suitable for a career in medicine shall be accepted.
- The maximum number of students that can be accommodated without negating teaching-learning effectiveness shall be admitted.
- Filipino citizens shall be given priority on admission.
- An admitted student who fails to enrol may be admitted in any succeeding year only after he/she re-applies and is selected on a competitive basis with the rest of the applicants for that year.
- Qualified applicants who are not admitted may re-apply in any succeeding year.
- Other relevant University rules on admission which are not contradictory to the preceding rules shall apply.
THE ADMISSION PROCESS
There are 2 entry points to the College of Medicine: Year Level I and Year Level III (First Year Proper).
ADMISSION TO YEAR LEVEL I (INTARMED)
Selection Process:
High school graduates who have met the requirements for admission to the University of the Philippines System are eligible for admission to Year Level I. Applications are coursed through the University of the Philippines System General Admission Process. The Year Level INTARMED students are selected from the top 50 male and top 50 female college freshmen qualifiers (ranked according to UPG) who indicated in the U.P. College Admission Test (UPCAT) application form their interest in INTARMED.
Only 40 applicants (20 males and 20 females) will be finally admitted into the program following selection process which include interview.
ADMISSION TO YEAR LEVEL III (MEDICINE PROPER)
The Medicine Proper is a 5-year study of basic and clinical sciences, humanities and internship.
Only applicants who will have obtained their Baccalaureate degree (Bachelor in Science or Arts) by the end of school year 2002-2003 or earlier are eligible. Applicants who will obtain their Baccalaureate degree in the summer of 2003 are NOT eligible for admission.
The applicant must have a valid National Medical Admission Test (NMAT) score not lower than 90 percentile taken on April 2001 to December 2002. The NMAT is administered by the Center for Educational Measurement. The applicant who has fulfilled the above requirements will be further evaluated in an interview by a faculty panel. Students who have been dropped from the rolls of the U.P. College of Medicine or other medical schools shall be denied admission or readmission. Medical students from other medical schools are NOT eligible for admission to Year Level III.
The Admissions Committee and the College of Medicine reserve the right to refuse admission to any applicant based on the standards and criteria set forth by the Committee pursuant to its mandate that has been approved by the proper University officials.
- Start of issuance of application forms
for Academic Year 2003—2004 : July 15, 2002
- Absolute deadline for filing of all required
documentation for a complete application : December 13, 2002
8. Applicants who have obtained their BS/BA degree during the first semester 2002-2003 or earlier are encouraged to submit their complete application before the deadline to facilitate the processing of their application.

Napakataas ang grade na kailangan para makapasok ako sa UP Manila College of Medicine. Kaya mo ba yan, Joel? Alam kong kaya mo yan. Kinakailangan mong magsakripisyo para makamtam mo ang iyong pangarap--ang mag-aral ng medisina sa UP Manila College of Medicine.

Saturday, June 12, 2004

Ang sarap matulog

Halos wala akong ginawa ngayong araw na ito kundi matulog. Ang sarap! Ngayon ang ika-106 na taong anibersaryo ng deklarasyon ng kalayaan ng Pilipinas mula sa Espanya. Andami ngang mga iba't ibang pagdiriwang kung saan-saan. Ang kalayaan ay nasa atin na. Binabaliwala natin ito. Iyon ay totoo. Simula noong bumagsak ang rehimeng Marcos, nawalan na tayo ng disiplina. Ang imoralidad at basura ay lumaganap. Hindi pa huli ang lahat. Araw-araw, tayo'y binibigyan ng sariwang pagkakataong magbago.

Freedom

We are free
because of them
our heroes
Don't let
there acts
go to waste

Freedom
don't wait for
it to disappear
It is worth
fighting for
living for
worth
dying for
We already
have it;
all we have
to do is keep it

Fridom

We r fri
coz of dem
r heros
dnt lt
der aks
go 2
wste

fridm
dnt wait 4
it 2 disapir
it s wort
fytng 4
livng 4
wort
dying 4
we olredi
hv it
ol we hv
2 do s kip it

Friday, June 11, 2004

The Unchanging

Who am I?
I am Joel Tolentino Duque
Born on August 05, 1986
A male human being
I love to think I have a purpose
It would be great to die only after success of the mission
In any case, a family would be nice; being with loved ones
I am weak; I have to surrender to somebody
To whom shall I become a slave?
My life is yours, master
I am yours to command
I am here through eternity
My best wishes
Love always
Sincerely yours,
jtduque

Nakakapagod

Katatapos lang ng unang lingo ng semestre. Nakakainis yung Physics 10. Hanggang ngayon, pagkatapos ng dalawang pagkikita, wala pa ring itinuturong aralin sa amin. Binigyan nga kami ng diagnostic test tungkol sa Physics at Astronomy. Ano ba iyan? May bago akong kaibigan. Hindi ko nga alam kung kaibigan din ang turing niya sa akin. Hindi siya namamansin. Para nga siyang galit sa akin. Paano ba naman, nagsaliksik ako ukol sa kanya. Kahit papaano, natutunan ko na ring mahalin ang pagod. Ito'y nangangahulugang nagmamature na ako.

Not enough

Sorry is not enough
Like balloons that will puff
It is soft and fragile
And it only lasts awhile

My sorry, I meant it
It's not just an exit
From the day of my birth
To the ends of the earth

Do you like to hurt me?
Am I a wannabe?
Reason does not suffice
My reaching for the skies

Thursday, June 10, 2004

Walang aklat

Magtatapos na ang unang lingo at wala pa rin akong aklat sa Biology at Chemistry. Walang stock ang National Bookstore--Ali Mall at Superbranch. Hirap talaga maghanap ng ibang libro 'pag estudyante ka ng peyups. Joel, onting tiyaga lang. Kaya mo iyan. Ikaw ang ngayon. Wala kang aanihing hindi mo itinanim. Gusto ko talagang maging manggagamot. Ito'y isang pangarap na matutpad. Nais kong mag-aral ng medisina sa UP Manila. Mga kapwa-Pilipino, lahat kayo'y aking isasama sa aking tagumpay!

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

Ironic

Ang biology ay ang pag-aaral ng buhay. Ngunit malungkot na sa pag-aaral ng buhay, kinakailangan kong kunin ang buhay ng ilang palaka. Ito ay aking nalaman sa pamamagitan ng aking pagskim sa aking biology laboratory manuals. Kawawa naman sila. Hindi naman siguro sila dapat mamatay. Ang dilemma na ito ay matagal nang kontrobersyal. Datapwat, dapat akong magdesisyon ngayon. Hanggang sa kasalukuyan, ang pagdidissect ng isang organismo lamang ang kasalukuyang mabisang paraan upang ang hayop ay mapag-aralan. Ang buhay ng hindi tao ay isasakripisyo para sa buhay ng tao. Kumbaga sa Ingles: "The end justifies the means." Papatay kami ng mga nilalang upang makatulong sa pagsulong ng mga makataong interes. Nakapagpasya ng ako. Hindi na ako maaawa sa buhay ng palaka at iba pang hayop na gagamitin sa mga eksperimento. Naniniwala akong ito'y nasa loob ng pamantayang etikal. Lahat ng mga gawaing makasiyensiya, basta't nakapaloob sa moralidad, ay ating isabuhay.

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Goodness

I'm tired of the good.
What's with it?
Nothing.
It doesn't pay.

No such thing
as good karma.
Why would I believe it?
It has no basis.

I'm burned out.
Can't you see
that I'm just
So irritated?

Goodness only
is a choice.
It's up to you
to choose.

Pasensya na kayo

Mga giliw kong mambabasa, pasensya na po kayo dahil baka makapagpost na lang ako tuwing Biyernes o Sabado. Alam niyo po kasi, napakadami kong mga aralin sa iskul. Kaya huwag na kayong magtaka kung mapansin niyo mang na hindi na ako aktibo. Sanay naiintindihan ninyong nakatataas na prioridad ko ang aking pag-aaral. Mas mahalaga ito kaysa blog na ito.

Monday, June 07, 2004

Ang unang araw

Ang araw ay dumating na, ang araw na una akong papasok sa eskwelahan. Ano ba yan? Ang aga kong nagising kanina. Hindi ako sanay sa ganyan. Binati ko ng gudlak ang lahat ng nasa ponbuk ko na nag-aaral sa UPD. Dalawang tao nga lang ang nagreply--sina Bob at Boots. Wala naman akong magagawa kung malamig yung nakararami. May takdang-aralin agad ako sa Panitikang Pilipino 19. Alam niyo, ngayon ko lang nalamang ang paksa ng naturang kors: Sekswalidad at Kasarian. Oh my God, magbabasa at manonood kami ng pornograpiya. Hindi naman siguro ako magkakasala dahil gagawin namin ito sa konteksto ng edukasyon. Sana nga lang ay makabuti ito imbes na makasama.

Sunday, June 06, 2004

Gising pa ako

Gabing-gabi na at gising pa ko. Unang araw ng pasukan bukas. Nagmisa nga pala ako kaninang alas siete ng gabi. May asong pumasok sa simbahan. Natuwa nga ako kasi ang lambing nung aso. Yung paring nagsermon ay bagong pari palang. Good luck po sa inyo. At tulad ng karaniwan nilang ginagawa, naki-alam siya sa pamahalaan sa homili. Bakit ba sila (ang kaparian) ganyan? Hindi ba nila naiintindihan na ang kanilang ginagawa ay labag sa saligang-batas? Sige, matutulog na ako.

Saturday, June 05, 2004

May pakiramdam ako

May pakiramdam ako.
Anong palagay mo?
Masisiyahan ako
sa ginawa mo?

Siyempre, hindi no!
Ano ako?
Lulu-luko,
Utu-uto?

Putang ina mo!
Isa kang gago;
Hindi na magbabago
Aking panibugho.

Kaibigan? Kapal mo.
Ikaw ba ay sino?
Isa ka lang tak-ke,
Puno ng mga bulate.

Friday, June 04, 2004

Sa palengke

Kaninang umaga, pumunta kami ng aking ama sa palengke. Ang pamilihang bayan na aming pinuntahan ay ang Q-MART. Mula sa Camp Crame, kami ay tumungo roon sa pamamagitan ng pagsakay sa dyip (Q-MART). Grabe, ang daming mga paninda! Ang pangunahin dahilan namin doon ay ang bumili ng pusit. Sa kasamaang palad, wala kaming nakita roon. Ang binili na lang namin ay apat na pinya, labindalawang itlog (ng manok), at sampung piraso ng balut. Masasabi kong masaya ako tuwing pumupunta kami sa palengke. Bakit? Pambihira kasi iyong nangyayari. At umuwi kami sakay ng air-con na bus (Cubao-Ilalim). Nakakainis nga at sa ibabaw pa rin dumaan ang bus. Pero okey na rin iyon. Hindi mababago noon ang katotohanang sumaya ako kahit papaano.

Thursday, June 03, 2004

Dreams are dark

Dreams never come true
That's why I'm blue
They're our best hopes
Nothing but weak ropes

Floating like a cloud
Never turns loud
Drifts away, slowly
As good as a folly

Aking kamatayan

Mamamatay ako
'Yan ay tiyak
Kung ako'y pamimiliin,
heto ang gusto ko:

Maraming kaibigan
Lahat ay totoo
May iisang asawa
Apat na anak

Mabilis ang libing
Walang iyakan
Walang tawanan
Parang ako

Ipangako ninyong
ang huling hiling
ay di-babaliin,
bagkus, itatayo

Walang basehan

Ang iniisip ko
ay walang basehan
Ito ay malabo
parang lokohan

Hindi kita mahal
'Yan ang totoo
Puro ako daldal
Wala sa tono

Hinahangaan kita
Walang biro
Ang iyong mukha
ay nakatitindig-balahibo

Mahirap tanggapin
Walang basehan
Aking pagtingin
Ahh, umuulan

Natapos ko

Ngayong araw na ito ang unang opisyal na araw ng enrollment. At sa manilwala man kayo o hindi, natapos ko ang naturang proseso, maging ang pagbabayad ng tuition fee. Alam niyo ba, hindi ko inaasahang matatapos ko ito sa loob ng isang araw lamang. Apat na sabjek ang hindi ko nakuha sa CRS (ang online pre-enlistment ng mga sabjek ng UP Diliman). Ang mga sumusunod ay ang mga pinangpalit ko sa kanila: PE 2 - Stretching, Physics 10, Philosophy 10, at Panitikang Pilipino 19. Kakaiba ang nakuha kong schedule; Mondays/Thursdays: 7 A.M. - 2:30 P.M., Tuesdays/Fridays: 7 A.M. - 7 P.M., Wednesdays: 7 A.M. - 10 A.M., at Saturdays: 8:30 A.M. - 12 N.N.

Nakita kita ngayon

Nakita kita ngayon
Ang ganda mo
Haay
Kinakapos ako ng hininga

Wala na akong masabi
kung kaya't
dagli kong itong
tinatapos

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

Paghihintay

Sa aking buhay, may mga pagkakataong kailangan kong maghintay. Ito ay hindi dahil sa aking kagustuhan kundi dahil sa pagkakataon. Nais kong ikwento sa inyo ang nangyari sa akin kanina. Ito ay isang payak na halimbawa ng naturang kalagayan. Galing ako sa mahal kong UP Diliman upang magpatala, miski man lamang sa PE 2 at Physics 10. Sa kasamaang palad, hindi pa raw kami pwede. Ang mga maaaring magpatala ay yaong bago at magsisipagtapos na mga mag-aaral. Haay, umuwi na lang ako. Sayang lang ang oras ko kung piliin kong manatili roon. Wala naman akong nakaplanong gawain doon. At habang ako'y papauwi, sakay ng bus, ang aking kaluluwa'y napuno nang kaligayahan mula sa tiyak na pagtanaw sa mga bagay.

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

Kawalan

Nariyan ka
Sa harap ng kompyuter.
Nakatunganga,
Nagwawala.

Ano ba ang gusto mo?
May pag-asa ba ang pagbabago?
Itigil na ang panggagago.
Huwag ka nang magtago.

Naku! Nakita ko na
Ang di ko alam.
Nagpapawis,
Sa huling bugso ng tag-araw.

Mga huling araw ng kaligayahan

Bukas, pupuna ako sa UP Diliman upang magpalista sa darating na pasukan. Heto ako ngayon, inihahanda ang aking sarili sa isang papalapit na hamon. Anong yayariin ko para maisakatuparan ang aking mithiin? Sa kasalukuyan, ako'y nagbabasa ng isang librong na papamagatang "Word Power Made Easy". Ito ay isang malakas na kasangkapan sa papagpapataas ng kakayahan ninuman sa Ingles. Limang araw na ang lumipas nang sinimulan kong basahin ito. At maaari ko nang isaad ang hatol: "WPME ay napakabisa!"

Monday, May 31, 2004

Pagpipigil sa sarili

Ako may malaking problema. Kulang ako sa disiplina. Alam niyo bang kung ilang oras na naman akong nagcomputer ngayong araw ng ito? Isang malaking anim na oras! Oo, dapat ko nang itama ang aking kamalian. Ngunit paano ko ito gagawin? Nasa akin na ang sagot sa aking suliranin. Ang tanging hadlang lang ay ang ningas-kugon kong pagpapatupad ng kalutasan. Maghahanda ako ng isang talatakdaan na siyang gagabay sa aking pang-araw-araw na buhay. Ang usaping hukuman nanahan.

Sunday, May 30, 2004

Kapanganakan ng isang blog

Ngayong araw na ito, aking nilikha ang isang blog. Ito ay katatampukan ng aking mga kaisipan at karanasan. Hangga't maaari, araw-araw akong maglalagay ng mensahe dito. Nawa'y manatili kayong interesado sa munting tala ng aking pagkatao. Ang blog na ito ay inaalay ko sa Poong Maykapal.

Sunday, May 23, 2004

Time to Say Goodbye

Time pass by
Precious moments too
Could've been
Many questions

It wasn't ever
meant to be
Lovers
we were never

However
A lesson learned
Forever treasured
Always there

Thank you
for your existence
It is enough
Goodbye

Monday, May 10, 2004

On Singlehood

I'm a bachelor. Oftentimes, I long for the day that I'll enter a relationship. I know that I must be a professional before jumping into one. I'd become a physician in ten years time.

Now, back to singlehood. I feel jealous when I see sweethearts holding each other's hands. Nevertheless, I realized, as young seventeen years old, that I ought to bravely accept that reality.

I say to myself, "You'll not be a single forever." But if ever I remain a single 'till death, I know that I won't be sad. Why do I say so?

Marriage is not the only form of companionship. Other forms exist: family, friends, community, locality, regional, national, continental, and international.

Sunday, May 09, 2004

Thinking of you

I lie awake in my bed
Thinking of you
Pondering what life could've been
If you were only here

For me, you're the prettiest
Your beauty captivated me
Never imagined I'd fall in love
My life wasn't the same again

Please let me enter your world
Have a little faith in me
From thee, I beseech compassion
And utmost understanding

Saturday, May 08, 2004

Don't leave me

Don't go
Don't leave me
I want you
to be here
with me
I love you
It's true
You mean much
to me
I'm afraid
I fear
the day
would come,
the day you'd
leave me

Sunday, May 02, 2004

Crush kita

Alam mo bang crush kita
Kaya nga ang kulit ko e
Nasasaktan ako kasi hindi ka
nagrereply

This is the first time na nag-aral
ako sa co-ed na school
I like you because your physically
attractive

Moreover, I want to know you better
It all depends on your choice

Alam mo, ang gusto ko lang naman
ay makapagchat tayo
That's all

It is a small favor that I'm
asking, isn't it?

I know that what I'm doing right
now (opening myself and being
vulnerable) is foolish
Nevertheless, I've decided to tell
you the truth

You seem to be a nice person
Anyway, I like you to know that

Saturday, May 01, 2004

Ikaw

Ikaw ang gusto ko
Ikaw ang crush ko
Sana mahal mo ako
Sana gayun din ang
nararamdaman mo
Kasi, naman
Mahirap magmahal
'pag 'di ka mahal
ng taong mahal mo
Takot akong iwanan
mo akong nag-iisa

Thursday, April 29, 2004

Whenever I think of you

I don't know what to do
whenever I think of you
I start to drool
and turn into a fool

I can't explain it well
but let try as well
I need you here
'coz your my darling dear

I really favor you
'coz you're a splendid view
It's you I wanna watch
and the one I'd touch

Biyaya ni Bathala

Mahal kita
'Wag nang magtaka
Kung ako'y ganito
'Wag kang malito

Ikaw ang gusto
Ito ang totoo
Ikaw ang ganda
ng umaga

Pawiin ang luha
Tapusin ang dusa
Ang iyong kamay
Nagbibigay buhay

Ang mga ngiti
mula sa 'yong labi
ay tanda
ng pag-asa

Ang itim mong buhok
Saki'y humihimok
Ang 'yong mukha
Biyaya ni Bathala

Saturday, April 24, 2004

Pansinin mo naman ako

Ako sa 'yo'y may pagtingin
Nais ko laging sambitin
Ang maganda mong pangalan
Makita ang 'yong larawan

Ika'y pakamamahalin
Lagi kitang susuyuin
Puso ko ay uhaw sa 'yo
Mapansin mo sana ako

Hindi ka ba naaawa
Mga mata'y lumuluha
Ako ay nagsusumamo
Pansinin mo naman ako

Bakit ikaw pa?

Bakit mo ba ako ginaganito. Ewan ko kung bakit sa dami ng tao sa mundo, ikaw pa ang natipuhan ko! Hindi mo man lang ako pinapansin. Ang hirap talaga kapag umiibig ang isang nilalang. Lahat ng mga pangsangga ay ibinababa. Handang masaktan, hanggang sa puntong pagpaparaya.

Ano ba ang masama? Binata naman ako, dalaga ka. Pareho tayong walang relasyon. Oo, alam kong meron kang gustong iba. Oo, alam kong hindi ako ang gusto mo. Ngunit anong magagawa ko? Ikaw ang mahal ko. 'Bat 'di mo ako bigyan ng pag-asa? Mabuti naman ang hangarin ko sa iyo.

Kung ako ang pipiliin mong maging nobyo mo, buong puso kitang aalagaan. Tiyak, hindi kita pababayaan. Pinapangako kong magtatapos muna tayo ng pag-aaral bago tayo magpakasal. At magpapakasal muna tayo bago tayo magtalik. Lahat ng iyan ay pinapangako ko sa iyo.

Sunday, April 18, 2004

Oh God

Thank you for being near
Thank you for being here
Wish this is forever
Let you go, I'll never

Won't you soothe my dry lips
Kiss me until it rips
Tightly, snugly hug me
Enflame me with your fire

Let's play the wrestling game
Your name can make me tame
I promise that you'll win
To you, I surrender

Loving Christ

Loving Christ shouldn't be difficult. He gave us many things that we now enjoy. Without Him, life would be unbearable. That's true, that's for sure.

How can you not love somebody who died for you on the Cross? Such an act is the supreme example of love--laying down one's life for one's friends.

Don't be

Don't be a computer addict
The computer will always be there
It will never leave you
When you leave and return, it will be there

Friday, April 16, 2004

Sembreak 2004

Natulog ako ngayong araw na ito. Ibig sabihin, kagigising ko pa lang. Kaninang umaga, gumawa ako ng dalawampung katanungan para sa Caduceus Cup, ang inter-school high school quiz competition ng PMHS, ang organisasyon aking sinasalihan. Dahil sa batch project, medyo masama nga ang pakiramdam ko na parang mauubos ang aking sembreak sa pag-aasikaso ng aking mga tungkulin ko bilang applicant sa PMHS. Grabe, ang sakit talaga ng tiyan ko ngayon! Ewan ko nga kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Parang ginagaya ko na tuloy si Mama sa kanyang pagkakaroon ng maraming sakit. Hindi ko ito gusto. Sa ganito, binabalak kong mag-excercise araw-araw simula bukas sa ganap na ika-5 ng umaga. Naiinis ako dahil maraming mga langaw ang gumagala sa aking pagsusulat at pinag-iisipan ko ring mabuti kung ako ay lilipat sa Economics o Philosophy. Kapag nag-aral akong mabuti, malalaman ko rin ito sa wakas.

Thursday, April 15, 2004

To My Future Wife

Queer, this poem may seem
Like a capricious whim
I am deeply perplexed
Let yourself be annexed

Allow me to love you
What I need is a clue
With all haste, I shall start
Squeezing my loyal heart

And if I'm not that cool
I will you my best tool
It's one of the strongest
Your best put to the test

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

Ano ang pag-ibig?

Ang kahulugan ng pag-ibig ay sadyang napakarami. Ito ang dahilan ng pagiging masalimuot nito. Ngunit kung ako ang tatanungin, iisa lamang ang makahulugang depinisyon na dapat tandaan. Ito ay walang iba kundi ang hubo't hubad na katawan ni Hesukristo sa krus.

Ayon sa simbahan, ito ang tanging paraan upang ang sangkatauhan ay maisalba mula sa tiyak na paglaho. Kung gayon, ang pag-ibig pala ay pagtitiis. Ito ay ang buong pusong pag-aalay ng sarili para sa kaligtasan ng mga kaibigan.

Pinili ng aking puso

Hindi ko magagawang paluhain ka
Hindi ko magagawang saktan ka
'Pagkat ikaw ang iniibig ko
'Pagkat ikaw ang buhay ko

Ako'y malungkot sa 'yong paglisan
Basta't lumisan, ako'y iniwan
Handa akong maghintay
Hanggang sa aking pagkamatay

Mahal kita, higit sa iyong alam
Gusto kita, kung alam mo sanang
Kailangan kita, sa bawat sandali
Marahil, ikaw ang pinili ng aking puso

Monday, April 12, 2004

War shouldn't be a Prerequisite of National Solidarity

War is a fortuitous event. This fact is incontestable and shall live through eternity. Magnanimous relationships broken. Incalculable damage incurred. Precious lives lost. Time and energy put to waste. Possible Golden Ages lost forever. No one wins. Everybody loses.

Undeniably, war is an efficient mover of capital. But it is a selfish process by which a party selfishly gathers its resources, strengthens itself, and eliminates opponents just to have more. Honestly, I don't have anything better to offer than war. But the fact remains--war is not an option. Other alternatives are greatly appreciated in this present time of history.

Friday, April 09, 2004

Mahal ko kayo

Mahal ko ang lahat ng tao
Na nasa ibabaw ng mundo
Ang pag-ibig na 'to'y dakila
Tulad ng apoy ng kandila

Ako ay handang magparaya
Upang ikaw ay lumigaya
Tatanggapin ang pagdurusa
Maging aking pagkapahiya

Thursday, April 08, 2004

Carnal Call

It is here again
Let us now begin
This earthly ritual
Moment is crucial

Forgive me for I have sinned
My worldly soul is now thinned
Peace is full of violence
To the dead I give condolence

Hearing the carnal call
No longer standing tall
Taking a stupid fall
Death bell takes its toll

I love you

I love you
Can't you see?
To have you
I'll never do

I promise that
I'll take care of you
Protect you from evil
Be always near you

Your beauty
Is what attracted me
I'm a stranger
Who likes to discover you

You seem to be good
You seem to be nice
That's why I'll take chances
Put myself on the line

So please let me
Do touch your skin
Enslave me
Make me yours

Nagrorosary sila

Hay Naku! Nagrorosary nanaman sila
Can't they think of a better way to start the day?
They are making the retreat such a bore
Why indulge in such a monotony?

Life is dynamic
We should live it to the fullest
It shouldn't be just lived
It should be celebrated

It is in this regard
That I recommend innovation
Use your imagination
To make a wonderful creation

We are not machines
We should be unpredictable
To God we must pray
In His hands we must stay

Monday, April 05, 2004

Aking kalayaan

Haay, gusto ko nang lumaya
Mula sa 'yong kontrol
Mga gago kayo
'La kayong kwenta

Oo, mabigat ang kapalit nito
Pero okey lang po
Kakayanin ko ang lahat
Para sa aking dagat

My Crush

You are my one and only crush
When you are near, I become hush
And I suddenly feel this rush
Which makes my amiable face blush

I'm sincere in my statement
I would not fail the commandment
Thou shall not bear false witness
Honesty, the trait I possess

Your shimmering face is lovely
Your figure is trimmed and shapely
Those traits are sufficient reasons
For me to serve you for seasons

You're the woman who'll be my wife
If not, I'd rather lose my life
Destined by God to be with me
My elixir, you'll always be

You're the only treasure I have
My will is pure as a white dove
Now it's time for you to decide
Or else forever I shall bide

Sunday, April 04, 2004

A Lenten poem

Now is the season of Holy Week
In which God's forgiveness we must seek
And we should be heartily sorry
For the sins we made so that we won't worry

Now is the time for us to reflect
As we enter church we genuflect
To show gratitude and respect
Make it a habit, lest we forget

Jesus was crucified for our sake
All over again, whippings He'll take
Just imagine how deep His love is
We can thank Him by supporting peace

Resistensiya

Wala pa akong pahinga
Dahil sa 'king pagbabasa
Kahit na 'ko'y tinatamad
Kailangan pa ring lumakad

Iniisip ko ang bukas
Mula ngayon hanggang wakas
Dapat akong magsumikap
Upang di ako maghirap

Kasangkapan ang tiyaga
Pati ang resistensiya

(itutuloy)

Saturday, April 03, 2004

What is your kind of man?

I'm interested to know
What kind of man you like
So I can be one of them
So that you'll like me too

Do you sense me?

Do you sense me?
Am I abstract?
Am I too unimportant
to remain unnoticed by you?

I know I'm a stranger
Somebody who took you by storm
For that, I ask you to forgive me
I'm sorry for doing so

Undeniably, that's the only way
I know you'll consider me
I hope you understand me
Can't you just befriend me?

I have no evil intentions
I want to love you
I like to share my life
with you, the one I love

But if you don't want this
anymore, I'll stop it
I guarantee you your freedom
I don't force myself upon others

The lady in the shadows

There she was
Walking by the hall
Glancing through the faces
Looking for her prey

There was she
Dancing at the party
Searching her mate
Taunting every male

She was there
Staring at the women
Scaring them at will
Sucking up their souls

Was she there?
Reality seems blurred
For no one ever saw
The lady in the shadows

The Temptress

There she goes again
Testing my will
Checking my character
Waiting my fall

Why do you love to do this to me?
I haven't wronged you
Won't you stop stabbing my heart
It's fragile, open, and defenseless

Stop torturing me
I have endured many pains
Don't attack me at my weakest
For I'll inevitably collapse

Why do I drive myself crazy?

I drive myself crazy
I always think of you
You are so beautiful to me
Can't you see my foolishness?

Do you advise me to stop?
Stop from your wretchedness!
Can't you do something else?
Why don't you put more meaning into your life?

Think of the people who love you
Try to show your gratefulness to them
You must be practical
The world is finite and small

You're just wasting your precious moments!
You are not feeling love
You are still incapable of it
How can you love others without loving yourself?

It's not right to have such an expectation.
So stop dreaming of her
Put your dreams into good use
And don't put it underneath the feet of others

Who knows?

Now, I know we aren't meant for each other
We are not destined to be together
I just wanna let you know that I'm sad
No longer share my life with you, too bad

But instead of harboring ill feelings
Guess I will just have to stop my yearnings
For once, you inspired me to do my best
Filled my life with hope, zest, and happiness

Although I can't have you this moment,
I'll continue my pursuit after Lent
May God guide us into our lives
And who knows, eventually we might jibe

Thursday, April 01, 2004

Nangangarap nang gising

Nakatunganga ka nanaman
Diyos ko, ano ba naman iyan
Bakit ka ba nagkakaganito
Parang nasisira 'king ulo

Ika'y laging nasa aking isip
'Ko'y uhaw sa iyong mga halik
O, gusto kitang makapiling
'Ya'y 'sa lang sa 'king mga hiling

Aba! Talagang maganda ka
Itanong mo pa sa 'yong ina

The Philippines

The Philippines is the country that I love. It is the land of my birth. It'll also be the land of my death. It formed me physically, mentally, spiritually, psychologically, morally, economically, and virtually my whole being. In it, my hopes, dreams, aspirations, and consciousness reside.

Why I stopped

You may ask why I stopped. You know why? Because when I do it, I feel that I'm just fooling myself. I realized that an activity which only brings ephemeral pleasure is not one of the habits worth keeping. It only makes a person a slave to the object of obsession. I believe many human beings, such as I, are locked up or put in bondage by such a vice. My whole being becomes subjected to a great risk whenever I engage in that particular act. I love myself and, consequently, I should love my personhood better by taking a more wholistic and holistic approach in living my life. And now, I promise myself not to let my body take part in such a worldly activity again. To all the temptations that come with it, I say: "Never again!"

Time

Time is gold
So they say
But by my way
It isn't

Time over gold
They aren't equal
Why such?
I'll explain

Gold spent
Can be earned back
But time passed
Can't be replenished

Will you marry me?

The distant stars are twinkling bright
The crescent moon is colored white
I believe the current time is right
Your eyes as nice as the night

My heart is beating very fast
Feel heavy as a big mast
(to be continued)

Hold me

I want you to touch me
Just like you used to
Just hold my hand
For it brings me warmth

Chorus:
So won't you hold me
Hold me, hold me
Make your grip tighter
So I'll feel warmer
Oh!, it brings me joy
Hold me, hold me

Monday, March 29, 2004

Buhay

Ang buhay ay mahalaga
Ito ay isang biyaya
Na nagmula sa Maykapal
Punatahan ng mga dasal

Maligayang bati

Ang araw na ito ay bukod-tangi
Kaya dapat ikaw ay ngumiti
Abril ang kasalukuyang buwan
At ngayon ay ang iyong kaarawan

Nararapat nating ipagdiwang
Pagkaluwal ng aking katuwang
Ka-eskwela, kaklase, kaibigan
Tunay, tapat, at maaasahan

Hinding-hindi ka niya iiwanan
Isa siyang matatag na sandigan
Isang taong ubod ng talino
Mapagmahal kahit na kanino

Nais ko lang ipahayag
Ang aking taos-pusong pahayag
Kaligayahan sa 'yo'y pupuno
Sa araw ng iyong pagkabuo

Mga kahilingan mo'y matatamo
Lalo na yung mula sa 'yong puso
Basta't huwag na huwag mong malimutan
Diyos ang iyong pasasalamatan

Paano?

Paano ba ako magtatapat
ng pag-ibig sa taong nararapat?
Paano ko sasabihin
ang aking mga saloobin?

Paano ko ipamamalas
ang pag-ibig kong wagas?
Paano ko ba sasambitin
ang 'king pinakatatagong lihim?

Sana'y paniwalaan mo ako
'pagkat 'di kita niloloko
Handa akong sumumpa
maging kay Bathala

Iniibig kita
Huwag ka nang magtaka
Sa taglay mong ganda,
lahat ay matutulula

Ang aking kapalara'y nasa iyong kamay
Ang aking buhay sa 'yo'y nakasalalay
Handa akong maghintay
habambuhay!

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

Noble Integrity

How far would you go
How long will you last
To preserve your name
To uphold your integrity

Is it unbreakable
Is it uncompromisable
It is up to you
It is your choice

Yes, the urge is there
The desire is intense
Will, also included
What is excluded

Time goes by
Time serves as a test
It tries you
Don't be caught off guard

Magandang gabi

Magandang gabi sa inyong lahat
Kayumanggi ba ang kulay ng inyong balat
Marunong ba kayong sumulat
Sa pamamagitan ng ating katutubong daglat?

O kabayan
Alam kong ika'y naguguluhan.
Hindi ka ba naaantok?
Baka gusto mo ng batok.

Igan, matulog ka na
Upang ika'y maging magana.
Magdasal ka
Bago mamahinga.

Dahan-dahan mong ipikit ang iyong mga mata
At sa iyong isip ika'y kumanta
Gawin ito para sa iyong ikaliligaya
Walang masama basta't huwag kang magpabaya

Ika'y laging tumalima
Huwag kang tatanga-tanga
Mahalin ang iyong sarili
Pati na ang iyong mga katabi

Inspired

I am inspired
to write even if I'm tired
I am blessed
to have luckily guessed

I am moved by the hope
that you'll never cut our rope
I am soothed by your kiss
whenever you're the one I miss

I am so grateful to God
for not making you that bad
I am so thankful
that you were wonderful

I feel my blood moving in a rush
It's so sudden just like a gush
Our mutual understanding is a testimonial
Of our irrational love that overrides every denial

And so to you I give my proposition
Through this short and simple composition
To you I offer eternal union
Will you be my lifetime companion?

Infatuation

Ever had this feeling
Heard your heart beating
Dum-di-dum-dum
Like a giant drum

Oh yes! Isn't she lovely
and also so comely?
On you my eyes are fixated
as if I'm a patient sedated

Your unwavering poison
intoxicated my reason
Not to mention
my engulfing passion

For me, you became more beautiful
You've made my world colorful
I was enamored by your smile
Through sheer brilliance and guile

I love your image on my mind
Really lucky with a great find
You're a treasure I'll always keep
Joys of life together we'll reap

Goodnight

To all the sleepy people:
May this nap
give you a boost
for the new day.

Monday, March 22, 2004

Jitters

Oh no, I feel it again
Jitters inside of me
Please go away
You're no good

I feel scared
of making a mistake
I am shy
of my imperfections

Moving On

How does one move on
after a failure?
How does one stand up
after taking a fall?

Doing so is hard
You feel so hurt
In a state of isolation
You receive consolation

The road is not smooth
It is full of twists and turns
Surrounded by monsters
And no one to guide you

Isn't it ironic?
Doesn't anyone care?
You feel you're bare,
so vulnerable.

But you've got to face the odds
Take your chances
Put your faith in Him
Continue and dance to the rhythm

Notes on the Population Problem of the Philippines

Indeed, the Philippines is an overpopulated country. This overpopulation, per se, is not the crisis. The real problem is the proper feeding and the utilization of this population. As we all know, the Philippines, an agricultural country, is backward when it comes to agricultural development in terms of research and technology.

The use of contraceptives is just a short-term solution (if it is a solution at all) to this worsening problem. For me, the real solution is the empowerment of the population. The people should be given equal opportunities to access basic services. Their basic needs must be satisfied first before we can expect them to be more productive. They should be equipped with the technical know-how's through the process of education. Also, more lucrative jobs should be created so as to decrease the number of disgruntled individuals.

I am complete

Some people feel that
They are lacking
That they are outcasts
Whenever they are alone

"Not I", I murmured.
I am complete by myself
I'm not talking of being anti-social
I'm referring to deep reflection

"Incomplete" is the title of a song
Which had plenty of airtime
We shouldn't feel incomplete
By ourselves, we are complete

God made us complete
He endowed us with various abilities
Much more than we could ask for
Much more than what we need

We don't need partners
To complete our lives
We'll only be successful diplomats
First by being complete

Trust in the Lord

O Lord, I trust Thee
Thou art my shepherd
Thou guidest me
whenever I'm lost

I put my faith in You
A true friend, You
never failed to help me
never failed to nourish me

Under Thy care, I changed
Like the metamorphosis
of a butterfly
You transformed me

Have pity on me, my Lord
for I have sinned
I have disobeyed Your will
Many times, I denied You

You are the only one I adore
My eyes only on You
I feel safe by Your side
That's why I trust You, O Lord

Dead fantasies

The fantasies
which I have imagined
which I have dreamt of
are now gone.

They are now buried
in the dark cemetery
They will never
Rise from their graves.

Once, I liked you
I longed for you.
But now, I disgust you
And for eternity, I'll despise you.

I don't know why
I gave you the chance
to move over me,
to control me.

You still haunt me
but I don't care.
You're an abomination
of civilization.

Love for the unknown

I love you
Even though I have never seen you
I love you
Even if I haven't touched you

Still, I don't know
Who your mother is
I know your father
I am your father

I love you
I love my children
You are my children
You are dear to me

In the future,
We'll be able to know
One another
To know your mother

But today,
All I can do is promise
That I'll work hard
To make you a reality

Thursday, March 18, 2004

You

You're the reason
of my mission
You brought color
and flavor
to my life
Be my wife
I like your tone
and your bone
You're my rhyme
'Till the end of time
Please dine
and be mine
I'm sweet
like Crete

The end

I can't sleep
I can't eat
I am weakened
by your smile
I am yours
to command
I'm to be found
only by your side
Passion has
overcome me
I like you
I care for you
You're my soul
You're my hope
I'll love you
'till the end

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

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dats tru



Wat dey tink



isnt impt.



Luv u



huevr u may b.



Txt m 2 sa lahat

ng minamahal m.

Mahal k nila

kung itxt bck k nila.

The answers

R u d 1 4 me?

M i d 1 4 u?

I m hir 4 u.

R u hir 4 me?

I mis u.

Do u mis me?

Ur n my hart.

M i in ur hart?

I luv u.

Do u luv me?

Only u know

d ansers.

Sunday, March 14, 2004

1

Im d 1,
im no 1.
Im evrthing,
im nothng.
I lyk u,
i luv u.
Ur my no. 1,
ur my spcl sm1.
I dnt wnt u 2 go,
pls dnt jst lt go.
Wiv cme vry far,
Dnt lt it bcome a war.

Sunday, February 29, 2004

Wanna know you

I'm interested to know you.
For now, that's the only thing I'm sure of.
I feel shy but I can't help myself.
I've fallen into a pit from which I can't leave.

Wednesday, February 11, 2004

D wy u r

Wn i
dnt tnk,
i tnk
of u.
Wn im
idle,
i go
krzy.
I dnt
knw wt
wl
hapn.
I dnt
knw f
tmrw wl
cme.
Bt 1
tngs
4 sur.

Dat il
rmain
ds wy
4evr.
I lyk
u d
wy u
r.

Medical Books - 1st Year

  • Bates' Guide to Physical Examination and History Taking, Ninth Edition with E-Book (Guide to Physical Exam & History Taking (Bates)) by Lynn S Bickley and Peter G Szilagyi (Hardcover - Jun 1, 2007)
  • Biochemistry (Biochemistry (Berg)) by Jeremy M. Berg, John L. Tymoczko, and Lubert Stryer (Hardcover - May 19, 2006)
  • Clinical Anatomy by Richard S Snell (Paperback - Jun 1, 2003)
  • Clinical Neuroanatomy (Clinical Neuroanatomy for Medical Students (Snell)) by Richard S Snell (Paperback - Jul 1, 2005)
  • Harper's Illustrated Biochemistry (Harper's Biochemistry) by Robert K. Murray, Darryl K. Granner, Peter A. Mayes, and Victor W. Rodwell (Paperback - Jun 13, 2006)
  • Kaplan and Sadock's Synopsis of Psychiatry: Behavioral Sciences/Clinical Psychiatry (Synopsis of Psychiatry) by Benjamin J Sadock and Virginia A Sadock (Paperback - May 1, 2007)
  • Lehninger Principles of Biochemistry, Fourth Edition by David L. Nelson and Michael M. Cox (Hardcover - April 23, 2004)
  • Lippincott's Illustrated Reviews: Biochemistry (Lippincott's Illustrated Reviews Series) by Pamela C Champe, Richard A Harvey, and Denise R Ferrier (Paperback - Jul 1, 2007)
  • Medical Physiology, Updated Edition: With STUDENT CONSULT Online Access (MEDICAL PHYSIOLOGY) by Walter F. Boron and Emile L. Boulpaep (Hardcover - Nov 19, 2004)
  • Review of Medical Physiology by William F. Ganong (Paperback - Mar 8, 2005)
  • Textbook of Medical Physiology: With STUDENT CONSULT Online Access (Textbook of Medical Physiology) by Arthur C. Guyton and John E. Hall (Hardcover - Sep 1, 2005)

Documentaries

  • [Al Fry] Hidden Bible Knowledge
  • [Al Fry] Hidden World History
  • [Alberto Villoldo] Munay Ki - great rites of initiation of the shamanic medicine way
  • [Alex Jones] ENDGAME - Blueprint For Global Enslavement (2007)
  • [Barrie Zwicker] The Great Conspiracy - The 9/11 News Special You Never Saw (2005)
  • [BBC Horizon] How to Make Better Decisions (2008)
  • [BBC Horizon] Is Alcohol Worse than Ecstasy (2008)
  • [BBC Horizon] What on Earth is Wrong with Gravity (2008)
  • [BBC Panorama] Sex crimes and the Vatican
  • [BBC TWO] Alternative Medicine - The Evidence
  • [BBC] Microchip
  • [BBC] Planet Earth
  • [BBC] The Death Of Yugoslavia
  • [BBC] Why Democracy Taxi to the Dark Side (2007)
  • [CBC] The Blue Buddha - Lost Secrets of Tibetan Medicine - Nature of Things
  • [CBC] The Fifth Estate - Spies, Lies, and Secret Weapons
  • [Daniel G. Karslake] For the Bible Tells Me So (2007)
  • [Dave Hunt] A Woman Rides The Beast - The Catholic Church And The Last Days (2006)
  • [David Icke] Revelations of a Mother Goddess
  • [Dokument Dun] Thin
  • [Dr Deagle] Connecting the Dots - Granada Forum (12-2006)
  • [Drew Heriot, Sean Byrne, Marc Goldenfein, and Damian McLindon] The Secret (2006)
  • [Eric Jon Phelps] Vatican Assassins - The Ultimate Conspiracy
  • [Fritz Springmeier] Undetectable Mind Control Lecture
  • [Gary Hustwit] Helvetica (2007)
  • [Hans Jenny, Peter Guy Manners, and Jonathan Goldman] Cymatics - Science Of Sound Vibrations on Matter
  • [Jed Riffe] Waiting to Inhale - Marijuana, Medicine and the Law
  • [Jerry Brunetti] Food as Medicine (2005)
  • [John Pilger] The War On Democracy (2007)
  • [John Steele] Geomancy
  • [League of Noble Peers] Steal This Film (2006)
  • [League of Noble Peers] Steal This Film II (2007)
  • [Matthew Ogens] Confessions of a Superhero (2007)
  • [Michael Tsarion] The Destruction of Atlantis
  • [PBS Frontline] The Medicated Child
  • [Peter Coyote] Out of the Blue - The Definitive Investigation of the UFO Phenomenon
  • [Project Camelot] Project Camelot Interviews (2007)
  • [Science Channel] 100 Greatest Discoveries
  • [Seth Gordon] The King of Kong - A Fistful of Quarters (2007)
  • [William Gazecki] Future By Design (2006)
  • Communis and the EU
  • The Freeman Perspective - Chemtrails - Clouds of Death
  • The Medical Aspects of Nuclear Radiation (2007)
  • Unit 731 - Nightmare in Manchuria (1998)
  • {National Press Club] The Disclosure Project (May 9th, 2001)