Tamad

Yep, yep. That's right. I was adjudged "tamad" or lazy. Paano ba naman, umaga, hapon, gabi at hatinggabi ako kung maglaro ng kompyuter. Hindi ako tumutulong sa mga gawaing bahay sa aming bahay. Nawa'y may maipayo kayo sa akin.

Kainis

Bakit ganoon? Ba't hindi ako natanggap bilang Academics Committee member ng PMHS. Siguro dahil bobo na ako. Siguro dahil preperensiya nila yung mga nakakuha ng matataas na mga marka sa nakaraang semestre. Ganoon ha! Aba, tila'y sinusubukan nila ang aking kakayahan. Pangako ko, mag-uUniversity Scholar ako sa darating na dalawang mga semestre. Isa lang talaga ang dapat kong tandaan: Biology is part of Economics. Anlabo ba? Sorry na lang kung hindi niyo nakuha. Hindi ko iyan ipaliliwanag.

Advice needed

I have a dilemma. Should I or shouldn't I apply at ABM for membership. Honestly, it was the organization which I really considered joining. I don't know it will have a major conflict on my PMHS membership. Not only that, it will be the 50th anniversary of the organization -- PMHS, that is. I have many wants such as being a University Scholar for the 1st Semester of the 2005-2006 Academic Year in UP Diliman. Sigh.

Lider

Tumigil ka sa pagkakamali
Gumawa ka ng tama
'Pagkat ang kinabukasa'y
Nasa 'yong kamay.

Itigil na ang pagluha
Itigil na ang pagwawala
Mayroong bukas na masaya
Makalawa'y nariyan ang grasya.

Kaingitan ang iba'y bawal
Dahil ikaw ay isang kawal
Handang lumaban
Para sa bayan.

Tapos noon 'ka'y aangat
Huwag ka lang lilingat
Ang buhay ay puno
Ng lahat kung pangulo.

Consistent Desire

My treatise as of the 18th of May 2005 is such:

I propose a new theory that shall be called "The Theory of Consistent Desire." One must not combat desire for it is but a natural feeling, a natural tendency of human beings. Why most of us fail is because we do not push ourselves to be the best we can be, having our desires/passions or whatever you may want to call it.

Gusto

May gusto ako sa isa nating kaklase sa Bayokemistri. Katukayo niya yung isa ko pang binibining nitipuhan rin sa isa kong pampalakasang asignatura. Sa mga nakakaalam o may ideya. Manahimik na lang kayo. Akin lang siya. Hindi-hindi ako makapapayag na siya'y agawin mo sa akin. Magkikita kami sa UPPGH kapag pareho na kaming nag-aaral ng Medisina.

Culture of Death

Yes, that's right. If you don't want to live the right life, then be in front of your computer 24/7! Stupid hobby! Don't study your lessons. Always fantasize about women sleeping with you. Don't excercise. Make sure that you fail all your exams. Stalk on other people. Curse everybody. Hate the world. Believe that there is no God. Waste all your time and energy on doing unnecessary things. Have a lonely heart. Be a pessimist. Ride a tank and flatten them with it. Kill all those who resist. Be on your own. Don't trust others. Think about it. Become fixated with it. Live it. Don't become the president of the Philippines. Do a Simoun. Befriend the Satan. Kiss him. Have sex with him. Do things which will glorify him. Go to hell! Fuck you! Why are you reading this? Motherfucker! Son of a bitch! Say all of those bad words. Study all of the evil books. Believe in Dan Brown's book. Forget all goodness. Make time go like never ever. Don't die. Don't die if it's not through suicide. Maximize the evil you can do. Explore other habitable lands and spread badness there. Complete everything. Perfect everything. Don't stop. Don't get tired. Exercise yourself. Count one to negative infinity. Start now. Come back to me when you've finished.

Darling of the Crowd

It's such a weird sounding award for me. That's because I associate darling with girls or females. I'm definitely not one. I'm not that proud of getting it two times, during the Protein Rap and Lipidonovela. I would have been happier if I had gotten higher scores in the Biochemistry examinations. It is for this reason that I feel than I'm just a lowly clown, just there to entertain other people. If could choose, then I would live the life of an intelligent, sculpted, and well-rounded man -- not a man with a round stomach.

Yoko

Ayaw ko ng yellow. It's such a bright color. The Eastern people. They shouldn't be here in the Philippines. Filipinos are much more superior than them. Iba ata ang Pinoy!

To fall or not to fall

That is the current question in my mind. I do know what's best for me. I have a choice; it wasn't discounted for a jiffy. Stop wasting time and don't fall. Don't fail. This is only once and the time is now. The real world is harsher than what it seems. Become one of the top five in the third exam in biochemistry. Success can only be achieved when you really try, of course unless when I am a genius, which is not the case. This is not about love. It's much more than that. I am a future leader of this country. I'm just not sure if I'll be a political, economic, or cultural leader. I mustn't miss this chance. There are many enemies I have to trample on. And for sure, it cannot be the case that I'm the one stepped upon.

Death

"Death only comes once in a lifetime. Enjoy it." -- Joel Duque

True happiness

"True happiness can't be found outside for it lies within." -- Joel Duque

Passion

"When passion got the best of you, it's not passion anymore -- it's obsession." -- Joel Duque

Too much

"Too much isn't just good enough." -- Joel Duque

Biochemistry

"I love biochemistry, and I'll prove it to you." -- Joel Duque

Improvement

"We are imperfect beings. That being the case, there will always be room for improvement." -- Joel Duque

To my stalker

You could burn in hell, for all I care!