Indecision

The cult of indecision has taken over me.
I know that this must be banished some how, some way, and some time in the future.
For most of my life, I have blamed myself for all the inauspicious things that happened to my life.
For not being a good student of history, I paid at a very high price.
In the recent past, I have thought of not having any children.
Before, I thought that having deep feelings for a woman for whatever desirable qualities they may possess, specifically physical beauty, is sinful and is a sign of weakness.
How can I ever attain transcendence without rejecting everthing that is worldly?
But in the course of my genetics and evolution studies, I learned that fitness includes both the physical and reproductive aspects of the being.
And of all the things, I want to take part in the next world.
Even though I might not be present physically, my line would continue and aid in shaping the far days that would come.

Break

I have been thinking lately that I was abusing myself mentally and physically by playing computer games all day and watching television. I've decided to take a break. "For how long?" you might ask. I don't know.

An Addict Gamer?

Are you an addict gamer? Wasting your time playing for hours? Don't fret 'coz I have a solution for you! You should search the Internet to search for walkthrough and spoilers. They would definitely help you to lose eagerness in playing the game. That's for sure!

Comparing ourselves

"Comparing ourselves to others is the only way to measure our existence." -- Rictor Lasanti, Tactics Ogre: The Knight of Lodis

Martial Law

"As of the twenty-first of the this month (21 October 2005), I place the entire Joel under martial law."

Pagkakapareho

Andami pala naming pagkakapareho ni Raffy, isang sa mga naging kaklase ko sa LSGH.
1. negtink
2. mas
3. krashonpersnwpersnemsr
4. atbp.
5. pcadik

GMA is my idol

Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo is my idol. Forget about the political backlashes her government is being immersed in. As for the economic reforms instituted and hopefully will be continued by her successors. I hope that she finishes her term as President of the Republic of the Philippines. If not, then at least she should get a graceful exit. Last night I was able to watch a special TV program which has GMA, DTI Secretary Peter Favila, and BSP Deputy Governor Diwa Gunigundo in it. The reforms are definitely seen to make the Philippines competitive again in the Asian economic scene. Even though she, herself, is a politician, there is still some truth in her words: Tigilan na ang sobrang pamumulitika. Kung mabuti-buti na ang ekonomiya, paano pa kaya kung mabawas-bawasan ang sobrang pamumulitika?" Gloria, I have nothing but salutes for you, the greatest president the Philippines ever had.

The Biology 102 feeling

This is definitely a first. For the first time in my college life, I settled for a class card grade of 3 for my course, Comparative Vertebrate Anatomy. Yes, this seems odd to my high school classmates. Biology is definitely my waterloo, alongside English. I hate this feeling. I need to study more. I feel guilty for almost failing the subject. My parents do work hard to raise me as a good citizen and member of God's community. My Aunt Mary has been selfless all this years in giving financial and emotional support to our family. I'd absolutely be a fool to give up now. The event calls for a major reform in my lifestyle. A good mind, heart, and soul are needed if I want to actually be able to pull through with the hurdles in my front. God, please bless me for I have sinned against You and my neighbors. I'm no longer worthy to be called one of your sons. I seek Your forgiveness. Forever I shall seek Thy ways.

Denial

"Denial is one of the monsters humans have learned to hang onto. What they don't know is it is eating them inch by inch." -- Joel Duque

Pinoy Ako

Pinoy Ako
by Orange And Lemons

Lahat tayo mayroon pagkakaiba
madalang makikita na
Ibat ibang kagustuhan ngunit iisang patutunguhan
Gabay at pagmamahal ang hanap ko
Pagbibigay ng halaga sa iyo
Nais mong ipakilala kung sino ka man talaga?

Chorus:
Pinoy ikaw pinoy
Ipakita sa mundo
Kung ano ang kaya mo
Ibang-iba pinoy
Wag kang matatakot
Ipagmalaki mo pinoy ako
Pinoy tayo

Ipakita mo ang tunay at sino ka?
Mayroon masasama at maganda
Wala naman perpekto
Basta magpakatotoo oohh...oohh...
Gabay at pagmamahal ang hanap mo
Pagbibigay ng halaga sa iyo
Nais mong ipakilala kung sino ka man talaga?

(repeat chorus)

Talagang ganyan ang buhay
Dapat ka nang masanay
Wala rin mangyayari
Kung laging nakikibagay
Ipakilala ang iyong sarili
Ano man sa iyo mangyayari
Ang lagi mong iisipin
Kayang kayang gawin

(repeat chorus)

Binaha kami

Binaha kami kanina, mga hapon iyon. Nakakapagod, kahit na papaano ang pagtataas ng mga gamit na maaaring mabasa at pangongolekta ng tubig mula sa sahig upang 'pabagalin' ang patuloy na pagpasok at pagtaas ng lebel ng tubig sa loob ng bahay na aming inuupahan dito sa Quezon City. Dalawa lang kami ni Papa kanina. Sina Mama at Ate Nadia ay nasa kani-kanilang eskwelahan. Dapat naming paghandaan ang ganitong mga pangyayari para sa susunod, hinding-hindi na kami gaanong mahirapan. Kailangan din naming magbawas ng mga gamit at magtapon ng mga basurang nakakalat lamang sa loob ng aming bahay. Hindi naging sapat ang sementadong harang na ginawa ni Papa. May mga sira ito sa gilid. Ang tubig ay pumasok din mula sa ginawang tubo ng tubig at mula sa sahig ng maliit na kwarto. Sana huwag na kaming pasukin muli ng baha. Ang baho ng tubig at nakakatakot na mabasa ang sari-sari naming mga kagamitan. Mag-aaral na nga akong mabuti.

Confidence

Dapat akong maging confident. Hindi ako dapat mahiya dahil sa aking mga kasiraan:
1. katabaan;
2. 'kapangitan';
3. 'masasamang bisyo/gawain';
4. katamaran;
5. kahirapan;
6. 'kabobohan'; at
7. kamunduhan
...dahil ako ay naapektuhan na sa mga sumusunod na mga kaparaanan:
1. mabababang marka;
2. kaisipang hindi ako matitipuhan o magiging kaibigan ng ibang mga tao, lalung-lalo na ng mga magagandang kaedad kong Pilipina; at
3. pagiging mainggitin.

Sigh

Yehey! Tapos na aking kalbaryo, tapos na ang mga eksaminasyon ko. Well, almost. Hindi pa sure kung pasado na ako sa Biology 102 kasi sa Lunes pa lalabas ang mga resulta. Exempted ako sa Biology 140! Ang saya. Kahit na papaano, mayroon naman akong naieksempt na sabjek.