New Year's Resolution

(In alphabetical order)

• Be a good family member. Be a good team player.
• Believe in God. Not to change my religion. [Note: I turned atheist this year.]
  
• Clean my room and keep it clean.
• Confess at least once this year (the sacrament). [Note: Read what's above.]
  
• Constant long-term goal in mind. Stick to my schedule for the day.
• Kaizen (constant improvement) of myself.
• Initiate chat at least 60% of the time. Become more of an extrovert.
• Love my studies. Show genuine interest for Biology at all times.
• Love myself. I will not abuse myself so long as it is possible.
• No any form of 'sex', whatsoever. No infatuation. Forget Ms. Ang. [Note: Sex is generally good. It has a purpose; it is important. I'll just have to make sure to balance it with respect to my life.]
• Practice memory power according to what I have learned from Mr. Alejaga.

This is by no means an exhaustive list of what I want to achieve for the coming year.

Welcome to Performancing!

Hi there! I am just trying out Performancing for Firefox which is an excellent add-on for the browser. Now, I can enjoy making posts much better.

Recalling an incident

I am about to recall an incident which happened last semester. This is so that I can juxtapose my experience of riding a jeepney with Mr. Quilang with that of Mr. Penuliar. Last semester, when I was taking up the course Comparative Vertebrate Anatomy, I was under the instruction of Mr. Gil M. Penuliar. One night, when I rode a jeepney near C.A.S.A.A. Food Center, Mr. Penuliar also boarded the same vehicle. Being bitter about my low and failing grades in the laboratory, I didn't even care to greet him.

Looking back, I knew what my mistakes were. I didn't devote enough time to studying the course yet I expected to pass my exams. I took it as something and so my rapport with my teachers suffered even more. I know that I cannot turn back the past, but hey, I can make amends. Mr. Penuliar, this semester, is once again my laboratory instructor. This time, it's in the subject Microbiology. This time, I can put more effort, become an effective student, not take things personally (but not impersonally also), get higher grades, and definitely learn much more ideas and concepts.

Note: I got a grade of 1.75 in Microbiology. Cheers!

Rant about locking my blog

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Unang Panliligaw

Malapit na ang umaga
Sa totoo, ito ay darating
Sa loob ng ilang oras na lamang.
Ako ay nababato
Hindi alam ang gagawin
Hindi mapakali
'Pagkat malapit ka ng dumating
Tulad ng umaga.
Ikaw ay napakaliwanag
Sadyang busilak sa iyong paligid.
Mula noon hanggang sa panahong ito
Hindi ko kailanman
Inisip na kita'y aking ligawan.
Ngunit ano nga naman ang alam ko?
Hindi ko napigil ang aking sarili
Isinawsaw ang sarili sa alanganin
Upang ikaw ay aking makapiling.
Hindi ko pa nararanasang manligaw
Dahil dito, hindi ko pa rin nararanasang
Masaktan o 'di kaya'y masagot
Ng isang matamis na oo.
Ngayon, este, mamaya ko pa lang ito gagawin.
Sa wakas, magbabakasakali na rin ako.
Sa pagkakataong ito, hindi na ako matotorpe.
Dahil sa pagkakataong ito
Pansamantala kong itatabi ang aking saplot
Ng pananggalang, ng proteksyon
Upang aking maipadama sa iyo
Ang tunay na nadarama.
Pagpasensyahan mo na kung ito lamang
Ang aking abot-kaya ngayon.
Hindi ako nangangako sa iyong mananariwasa ka
Sa aking piling.
Ang tanging maipapangako ko
Ay ang iyong kaligtasan
At ang pangakong pagsusumikapan kong
Magkakasundo tayo
Kung hindi man sa lahat ng bagay
Ay sa nakalalaking bahagi nito.

Kumain kasama ang pamilya

Anlamig naman dito. Masarap sigurong uminom ng hot sauce!

Pinaglaruan ang baso

Joel, hindi iniinom 'yan!

Isara ang iyong bibig!

Tirahan mo naman ako!

Jung Test Results

Introverted (I) 71.05% Extroverted (E) 28.95%
Sensing (S) 51.52% Intuitive (N) 48.48%
Thinking (T) 52.63% Feeling (F) 47.37%
Perceiving (P) 52.5% Judging (J) 47.5%

ISTP - "Engineer". Values freedom of action and following interests and impulses. Independent, concise in speech, master of tools. 5.4% of total population.

Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

Teachers can be nice

Teachers can be nice, at least sometimes
As I exited the U.P. Shopping Center, I saw my former instructor in Biostatistics and Genetics, Mr. J.P. Quilang. I tried my best to evade him but he headed to the jeepney stop where I was. He was the first one who greeted me and so I greeted him back, just like what a civilized and well-educated human being would have done. A Pantranco-headed jeep was approaching us so I boarded it right away, just like as before, in my effort to ride the same vehicle with him, which would then put me in an awkward situation. Unluckily, he went into the same jeep after me. He generously offered to pay my ride; I refused once but then he insisted so I didn't reject his offer anymore since he was my teacher and I'd also like to get a free ride once in a while. With a twenty-peso bill, he paid our respective fares with mine costing him P7.50. He was headed to the Highway (HI-WAY). I thanked him for his good act. Not being a good conversationalist, I kept quiet the entire trip and thanked him once more when I got off the jeepney on Philcoa.

Arbitrarya

Tala: Arbitrarya ang pagset ko ng araw sa dalawang entring sa baba. Ang aktwal na araw ay sa pagitan ng ika-10 ng Nobyembre, 2005 at ika-24 ng Enero, 2006.

10:26 - 10:44 N.U.: UP, mahal ko na

Sa pagpapaaral sa akin ng aking mga magulang sa UP, lalo na sa aking ama. Napag-isip-isip ko lamang na pinansyal ang pangunahing dahilan ng ginawang pang-uudyok ng aking ama sa akin, mga tatlong taon na rin ang nakalipas. Ngayon, nareyalays ko na tila mabuti na narito ako (sa UP), dahil marami-rami rin naman akong mga natututunan tulad ng mga sumusunod:
1. Reyalidad ng kahirapan sa Pilipinas.
2. Pagkakaroon gn kamag-aral na tagaoposit sex. Hindi nga lang naging maganda ang aking adjusment. Hindi ko masasabi ng tuwiran na ang aking nagawang pag-aadjust.
3. Agham at relihiyon. Nadebelop ang atheist sayd ko sa unibersidad na ito. Hindi naniwala sa diyos at muling naniwala sa kanya, hindi na nga bumalik ang matinding kapit ng doktrina sa akin tulad ng dati.
4. Pagkameet sa iba't ibang uri ng tao. Walang malinaw na stereotype kung ano ang isang UP student 'pag ikaw mismo ang nag-aaral dito.
5. UP bilang akademikong institusyon at barangay. Ang dalawang mga bahaging ito ay pagka- at pagiging UP ng UP ay nagtutunggali at may kanya-kanyang punto. Dapat nga lang tandaan na ang UP ay first and foremost, isang akademikong institusyon.
6. Scientific na pag-iisip, atitud. Dati, ako ay manghang-mangha sa social science, filipino, at math. Ang mga ito ay nagbago noong ako ay napasok sa aking mga major subjects bilang biology student. Kahit papaano, natutunan kong maapreciate ang mga buhay sa aking paligid.

10:45 - 10:58 N.U.: PMHS 60% rule

Tungkol sa 60% rule sa PMHS. Noong nakaraang semestre, matatandaan na ako ay isa sa mga pumirma pabor sa pagpapataw ng 60% rule sa organisasyong UP PMHS. Bilang aplikante noong nakaraang taon, naiinis ako sa mga myembrong hindi mahagi-hagilap kahit na ano ang aking gawin. Kailangan ko kasing magpapirma sa kanila para sa aking sigsheet.
Ngayon, sa ikalawang semestre ng ikalawang taon ng aking pagiging myembro ng organisasyon, nararamdaman kong natatamaan ako nito. Hindi ako nagsisisi anupaman sa ginawa kong pagboto pabor sa pagsasabatas ng pagtatanggal sa mga myembrong hindi aabot ng attendance sa 60% ng kabuuan ng opisyal na mga activity ng organisasyon. Nais ko ngang tanungin yung Sec Com na siyang nagrerecord ng naturang mga datos.

Habang hindi pa ako natatanggal ngayon, nanghihinayang na ako na baka matanggal ang aking membership sa PMHS na siyang pinaghirapan ko at ng aking pamilya sa loob ng isang taon. Lubos na marami ang pinagawa sa akin sa organisasyon na tila may extra akong 3 units kada semestre sa panahon ng aking pag-aaplay. Kung sakali, wala akong dapat sisihin kundi ang aking sarili.

Sa kasalukuyan, binabalak kong sumali sa org ni Sir Neil, guro ko sa Bio 12 lab na sa kasalukuyan ay walang pangalan. Kung sakali, maaaring isiping ito ang magiging kapalit ng PMHS. Sana mas magaang ang trabaho at maging mas masaya ako rito.

Attractive

"You may be attractive but that doesn't mean I want to or will have sex with you." -- Joel Duque

On Bed

"You may be good in bed but I am looking for someone who is better out than in it." -- Joel Duque

Nanood ng Oblation Run

"Masarap manood ng Oblation Run. Andaming mga babae sa gilid. At sa dami nila, lumalaki ang pagkakataong makakita ako ng mga magandang babaeng nanonood." -- Joel Duque

Gaya ni Gat Jose Rizal

"Gaya ni Gat Jose Rizal, nais kong ialay ang aking buhay sa Inang Bayan at mamatay para sa ating bansang Pilipinas. Wala akong pakialam kung magkaroon ito ng silbi o epekto sa ibang mga tao. Gusto kong matandaan ako ng mga tao bilang mabuting nilalang. Walang namang problema kung sakaling hindi ito mangyari." -- Joel Duque

Existence and Death

"Death initiates the termination of one's existence." -- Joel Duque

On Writing and Poems

"I may enjoy writing but I cannot consider myself a writer. I may be poetic but it does not follow that I am a poet." -- Joel Duque

Wanton lifestyle

"If you live life with a wanton lifestyle, then change your ways." -- Joel Duque

Believing elders

"Believe your elders. If not always, then do so sometimes. They are correct in certain aspects." -- Joel Duque

For bus passengers

"It is best not to wait at the door to exit the vehicle, especially if the floor is wet." -- Joel Duque

Costs Something

"Everything costs something, if you know what I mean." -- Joel Duque

Joel Duque's dead (false)

False: Joel Duque's dead.

True: While I was on my way to school, a man in front of the seat to the right on the bus kept on looking at me. For what specific reason, I don't know. This, coupled with my playing of PC-emulated games was the reason of the accident. It was an air-conditioned Fermina bus I rode that day, as far as I can remember. As we were nearing my destination that day, we reached Philcoa. There was a woman who was approaching the same single exit of the bus and she was walking in the opposite direction with respect to mine. I was successful in outpacing her so that I would be the first one to exit the automobile. And indeed, I was the first to exit. I tightly clang to the right side railing of the bus's exit. When the bus was slowing down (decelerating), I wasn't able to balance my body anymore and I slipped out of the bus. I hurt the left side of my chin, bruised my left elbow, left knee, and the left side of the inner part of my lower lip, and sprained my left arm and right thumb muscles.

False: As I fell down, a car was speeding up and hit me on my right leg. I rolled up the roof of the car and fell down on its back. The back of my head first hit the ground. As I was totally wet with blood and lying on my broken back, people started to gather around me because of the commotion that I accidentally made. They started to reprimand the driver and conductor of Fermina on my behalf. But my time was running out. I concerned UP student went out of his way and exclaimed out loud that I should immediately be brought to the hospital. An anonymous concerned citizen, with his limited daily allowance, volunteered to bring me to one. And so I, along with my school bag and Coca-Cola umbrella, was brought to East Avenue Medical Center. I was brought to the emergency room and the doctors and nurses there, full of effort, took care of me. My family was then informed about my situation. Sadly, because of their insufficient funds and inadequate equipment, they weren't able to fully realize their potentially of healing me. They decided to transfer me to a better equipped hospital. I died on my way to one.

False: My soul then left my body. I met the creatures of heaven, purgatory, and hell. I stayed in hell. I regret for not having confessed my sins and not believing in the Roman Catholic Church and God.

Note: I don't believe in God anymore.

The word 'love'

"Don't use the word love haphazardly lest it will lose its true meaning." -- Joel Duque

What if...

What if I started too look at things at with a totally different point of view? Such as:
1. Biology totally rocks.
2. I am handsome.
3. I can excel at whatever I do. (Just gotta put/devote more time to it.)
4. I am a good man.
5. I am always in a good mood.
6. I truly want to learn and learn. (There's no end to learning.)
7. Have true peace within my soul.
8. I am not living/stuck with the past.
9. I am not ashamed of who I truly am. (Because they will accept me.)
10. Think that the impossibles are not that impossible.