Heart ache, sliding, and fun

While walking inside Palma Hall, I was suddenly saddened by a sentence which popped on my mind. It particularly goes like this: "Enough, Joel, Enough. You have already bled enough." How sad! Isn't it? That line goes for my former crush (or more formally: the object of my infatuation). However, however how emotional I am, there is a counter-argument present for such claim: 'How can someone such as I hurt a lot when it's not the case that I've gotten close her. I was never close enough to touch her hand or hair. More so, I have not been able to talk with her. I think, as what I think my professor has thought of me, that I'm too assuming. Well, it only goes to show that I deserve that for having an imaginative mind--so imaginative to the point of taking for granted true relationships and being contended with pleasuring thyself. Also, another thing came to mind: It is impossible for one to have a heart ache without having heart disease--or maybe I have one. I have a high risk of getting diabetes because it is in the family, I am obese, I don't exercise regularly, and I get tired and thirsty right away.

I don't want to sound real bad, so I'll continue with my plan. Next on the agenda is sliding. After my Physics 72 class, I rushed to the Third World Studies Library which is where the concerned photocopying machine was. Unfortunately, the manang/saleswoman/tender wasn't present. Maybe she was having her lunch break, after all it was about 12:40 P.M. An important lesson presents itself here: "Everyone needs a break--even you and I." And so it was the case that I returned there after my Biology 140 (Genetics) class. At approximately 2:35 P.M., I returned and was able to obtain the four-paged handout for PhP 3. In connection with this, I also got myself handouts from my Geography 1 class for PhP 37.50. I didn't care whether or not it was my professor's assignment. The photocopy man said it was the required reading by another professor (but also of the same course). In line with this I went to the UP Shopping Center so as to inquire why the book E.D. Merrill PhP 350. I expected it to cost only PhP 179.75 [(479 pages) * (1 page photocopied material per 2 pages original material) * (PhP 0.50 per page) + PhP 60 for the hard binding]. The storekeeper explained the cost to me: [(479 pages) * (1 page photocopied material per 1 page original material) * (PhP 0.60 per page) + PhP 60 for the hard binding] = PhP 347.4 (approximately PhP 350). The moral lesson is one should ask himself questions before having any form of commitment. So much for the computations. Enough, Joel, enough. (Laughs.) Let's go back to sliding. It was the case that I wanted to overtake people in front of me who were chatting with companions and so were slow. (They somehow blocked my way.)

Finally, after sliding, there's fun. Sigh, it was a good thing that I didn't get my buttocks dirty with mud since it is currently the rainy season here in the Philippines. I love the feeling of having that extra boost within me. I like that carefree feeling when doing just about anything. The positive disposition is so good that is refreshing. Well, this has been a night for me and I hope that like me, you'll have this wonderful outlook that I have. Good luck to your studies, your relationships, and your life.