Alcohol

"No amount of alcohol can drain out the feeling of a love lost." -- Joel Duque

Looking back

I have wasted a lot of time writing about what I uprightly call false love. No more of this nonsense!

Cheese #2

"If only I could make my life not revolve around you, then I would be a much happier person." -- Joel Duque

Cheese #1

"How do I let go knowing that you're still here and the probability that you and will be together is not equal to zero?" -- Joel Duque

Paradise City

Take me down to the paradise city
Where the grass is green and the girls are pretty
Oh won't you please take me home
Take me down to the paradise city
Where the grass is green and the girls are pretty
Take me home
Oh won't you please take me home
Just an urgin’ livin' under the street hard case that's tough to beat
I'm your charity case so buy me somethin' to eat
I'll pay you at another time
Take it to the end of the line
Rags to riches or so they say ya gotta keep pushin' for the fortune and fame
It's all a gamble when it's just a game ya treat it like a capital crime
Everybody's doing their time
Take me down to the paradise city
Where the grass is green and the girls are pretty
Oh won't you please take me home
Take me down to the paradise city
Where the grass is green and the girls are pretty
Take me home
Strapped in the chair of the city's gas chamber
Why I'm here I can't quite remember
The surgeon general says it's hazardous to breathe
I'd have another cigarette but I can't see
Tell me who you're gonna believe
Take me down to the paradise city
Where the grass is green and the girls are pretty
Take me home heartache me down to the paradise city
Where the grass is green and the girls are pretty
Oh won't you please take me home
So far away so far away so far away so far away
Captain America's been torn apart
Now he's a court jester with a broken heart
He said, “Turn me around and take me back to the start
I must be losin' my mind."

Notes on History

"History is created by humans in its entirety." -- Joel Duque

What I stated above is true. That's the reason why governments and influential people give history its due importance. Leaders have done everything, to the best of their ability, to change parts of it which they don't like or despise completely. You ask how? It's simple. They use whatever means they have at hand to change the way it written through different tools -- money, influence, force, etc. Name it, they have it! I like to end this short essay of mine by giving a concrete example. Did you know in Japan, the Japanese government allowed the handing out of textbooks which purportedly downplays Japanese atrocities? That's according to the Chinese people. These even created tensions and bilateral backfires threatening the supposed goodwill that was developing between China and Japan. What's the truth of the matter? I don't know. I'm a Filipino. And even if I were a Chinese or Japanese, I still wouldn't know. I wasn't born before the 1940's to have actually experienced wartime movements and actions. I just don't want to believe everything said to my face with their face value. That's all.

Asexual

"I'm asexual and so are you." -- Joel Duque

Jeepney

Breezing through the street
Always shaking right and left
Ever travelling

Skyflakes wrapper

A Skyflakes wrapper
Gently rolling down the street
Light, forever crazy

Nonphysical power physically defined

"Power is the capability to transport protons, neutrons, and electrons with ease." -- Joel Duque

The Five People You Meet in Heaven

"Nothing but a fantastic movie." -- Joel Duque

That't what can I after not having read the novel from which it was based. Eddie (Maintenance) was the lead character. It was by this name that he was wrongfully called by children. He worked in Ruby Pier for most of his life. What fascinated me was that the story started with the end. I quote, "His death was only the beginning. He died in a freak accident by telling the people to go away from a risky place and ultimately by pushing a young girl. In his death, he didn't knew whether or not he was able to save her. All he knew was he felt he able to pull someone's hands.

And so the story began. He had to meet five people in heaven to explain things in his life on earth which he did not understand. First, he met a blue man from Algeria. Eddie was indirectly involved in the man's death. In his youth, Eddie was playing in the street and so the man, while driving his black car, avoided him and so died. Second, there was his officer who shot his leg. To be continued. I'm sleepy.

Unfounded

"Never put your trust in something that is unfounded." -- Joel Duque

Kapag patay na ako

Kapag patay na ako,
Iyon ang pagkakataong
Ako'y mamahalin mo

Kung wala na ako
Saka ka manghihinayang

'Di mo ba pansin
Ngayon ako'y iyong
Isinasantabi
Habang nariyan ang
Katotohanang ako ay
Nararapat mo lamang na
Kalingain at gabayan?

Siguro masyado pang
Maaga para ito ay
Iyong makita

Siguro nga

Changing Courses

"Decide quickly and be firm in your decision." -- Joel Duque

Game Theory

"Game Theory should not take out the entrepreneurial spirit in you. Just do not forget that in every enterprise there is a corresponding factor called risk." -- Joel Duque

Sleep

"The desire for sleep is one of those few things that turn into a need when it comes in short supply." -- Joel Duque

Physical attraction

"Physical attraction is not a determinant of love. Oftentimes, it is a manifestation of its absence." -- Joel Duque

Immortality

"Immortality does not guarantee fitness." -- Joel Duque

The physical illogic of love

Di ko talaga magetz kung bakit na iinlove ang mga tao sa isa't isa. Electrically neutral naman tayong lahat (most of the time). Yung distance naman usually sa mga tao ay malaki so kung susundin yung inverse square law, ang attraction between any two macroscopic bodies approaches zero. Ewan ko ba kung bakit nagkakacrush ako, kung iisipin namang mabuti e ang lahat ng tao ay gawa naman sa pare-parehong mga subatomic particles na protons, neutrons, at electrons.

Born to suffer

Suffering = Loving
To suffer = To love
"Without suffering, love does not exist." -- Joel Duque

The Theory of Remembering

"What one knows, one can forget. But what one does not know, one does not forget. Not forgetting is remembering. Therefore, the best way a person to remember is by not knowing." -- Joel Duque

Knowing nothing

"I take pride in knowing nothing." -- Joel Duque

Muntik na

Muntik na akong maging isang manggagahasa
Kung 'di lamang ako nagising ng maaga'y
marahil isa na akong pinatigas na kriminal
Pinapasuk-pasok ang aking ari sa puki ng
mga sinu-sinong mga babae

Ang aking pagkatao ay hindi mababaw
Hindi simple
Bagkus may lalim o malalim
'Pagkat mayroon akong dalawang mukha

Isang mabait, matalino, at gwapo
At isa namang masama, bobo, at pangit
Ngunit ngayon, ako'y nagbabago
Para sa saysay ng tanging totoo

Tanong

Ang sabi ng aking kabilang sarili: "Ba't mo ako ginasa? 'Yan tuloy, hindi na ako birhen."
Ang sabi ko sa kanya: "'Yan lamang ang nararapat sa iyo, maganda ka kasi e."
Siya: "Sapat ba iyon para ang isang kasuklam-suklam na bagay ay gawin mo sa akin?"
Ako: "Oo."

Ang tanda ko na pala

'Yan, yan ang aking napag-isip-isip sa aking ika-19 na kaarawan. Naging napakasaya ng pagdiriwang ng naturang kaganapan ngayong taong ito dahil sa mga sumusunod na mga kadahilanan:
1. pagpatak ng ika-12 ng hatinggabi, kinantahan at tinulaan ako nina Papa, Mama at Ate Nadia, sabay handog ng kanilang mumunting cake
2. bumati si Chard sa aking ng maligayang bati sa puntong 11.58 ng gabi, ika-4 ng Agosto
3. walang klase sa Geography 1
4. nanlibre ako ng Goldilocks cake sa aking mga kasamahan sa organisasyong PMHS
5. kinantahan nila ako ng Happy Birthday
6. nasagot ko kung ano ang silbi ng tRNA sa Biology 140 (amino acids)
7. nakapagbonding kami ng aking buddy na si Kris (same outfit, kumain ng tigalawang stick ng quail eggs, at tinulungan siya sa ibang katanungang chismis sa kayang sigsheet, kasama na ang pagturo sa kanya ng ibang miyembro ng PMHS, binigyan ko pa nga siya ng aking schedule sa naturang semestre)
8. nilibre ko yung mga coursemates ko ng isang New York's Finest (18-inch) sa pamamagitan ng pagpapadala sa Yellow Cab nito sa Institute of Biology (Main Building)
9. lumabas kami ng aking pamilya tungong Gateway, ang bago at makabagong mall sa me Araneta Center upang panoorin ang gusto kong makita pelikulang The Eye: Infilinty. Isa siyang kwento ukol sa limang magkakaibigang sa una'y gustong makakita ng mga espiritu. Di kalaunan, nagkandaloko-loko ang kanilang mga buhay. At sa huli'y, puro na lamang sila nagsisisi sa kanilang pakikialam sa itim na mahika at panggagambala sa mga kaluluwa. Pareho siyang nakakatakot at nakatatawa. Panoorin niyo siya kung mayroon kayong libreng oras.
10. Nilibre kami niya Papa ng Junior Manok mula sa Mang Boks. Ang sarap!