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Friday, September 22, 2006

Desisyon

Isa. Isang maling desisyon. Isang maling desisyon lamang at ang lahat ay maaaring kalabanin ka. Maaaring matisod, masugatan at madulas sa walang katapusang ispayral na pababa. Masama ang loob sa loob ng mahabang panahon. Parang hindi na ito bago sa iyo. Wala kang maintindihan sa iyong nakapalibot. Bakit kaya sila ganito, bakit sila ganoon? Ano ba ang pagkakaiba mo sa kanila. Bukod ba silang pinagpala habang ikaw ay isinumpa, ikinasusuklam ng halos lahat? Walang nakakaintindi. Ang gaspang nila. Hindi ba ikaw nadarama? Kuntento ka na ba sa sarili mong mundo? Nag-iisa. Kunwari'y masaya sa piling ng maraming tao, sa katotohana'y blanko. Nagpapakita ng makinis at pinong pag-uugali, ngunit ang natural nama'y ang kabaligtaran. Unti-unti ng nagagasgas ang iyong kaanyuang ang lalim ay hanggang balat lamang. Galit ka sa mundo, ayaw mo lang aminin. Hindi mo lang alam ay higit pa ang galit nito pabalik sa iyo. Tao. Ang rupuk-rupok mo. Kaunting pihit lang ay lumalabas na ang iyong depekto. Ang sabi mo ginawa ka ng isang nilalang na perpekto, walang bahid ng malisya. Paano mo ipaliliwanag ang sari-saring karahasang nasa iyong paligid? 'Teka, huwag ka munang magsalita. Alam ko na ang sasabihin mo. Na ganito, ganyan. Tumigil ka na, tumigil ka na sa iyong kabaliwan. Hindi magbabago ang anuman, lalung-lalo na kapag iyong iniaasa ang katuparan ng mga bagay-bagay sa isang walang buhay. Kung sakaling mamimili ka, piliin mo yaong may katuturan. Paganahin at gamitin ang iyong kaisipan. Kuntento ka na ba sa pamumuhay na mababa kaysa iyong tunay na ninanais? Sana hindi. Kung gusto mong umunlad, kung ang kagustuhang ito ay busilak, ba't hindi mo isaasa ang lahat sa iyong sarili. Huwag mong maliitin ang sarili. At sa huli, sa ilalim ng tamang pag-iisip at pangangatwiran, hindi ka lamang makagagawa ng isang tamang pasya, kung hindi marami.
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Medical Books - 1st Year

  • Bates' Guide to Physical Examination and History Taking, Ninth Edition with E-Book (Guide to Physical Exam & History Taking (Bates)) by Lynn S Bickley and Peter G Szilagyi (Hardcover - Jun 1, 2007)
  • Biochemistry (Biochemistry (Berg)) by Jeremy M. Berg, John L. Tymoczko, and Lubert Stryer (Hardcover - May 19, 2006)
  • Clinical Anatomy by Richard S Snell (Paperback - Jun 1, 2003)
  • Clinical Neuroanatomy (Clinical Neuroanatomy for Medical Students (Snell)) by Richard S Snell (Paperback - Jul 1, 2005)
  • Harper's Illustrated Biochemistry (Harper's Biochemistry) by Robert K. Murray, Darryl K. Granner, Peter A. Mayes, and Victor W. Rodwell (Paperback - Jun 13, 2006)
  • Kaplan and Sadock's Synopsis of Psychiatry: Behavioral Sciences/Clinical Psychiatry (Synopsis of Psychiatry) by Benjamin J Sadock and Virginia A Sadock (Paperback - May 1, 2007)
  • Lehninger Principles of Biochemistry, Fourth Edition by David L. Nelson and Michael M. Cox (Hardcover - April 23, 2004)
  • Lippincott's Illustrated Reviews: Biochemistry (Lippincott's Illustrated Reviews Series) by Pamela C Champe, Richard A Harvey, and Denise R Ferrier (Paperback - Jul 1, 2007)
  • Medical Physiology, Updated Edition: With STUDENT CONSULT Online Access (MEDICAL PHYSIOLOGY) by Walter F. Boron and Emile L. Boulpaep (Hardcover - Nov 19, 2004)
  • Review of Medical Physiology by William F. Ganong (Paperback - Mar 8, 2005)
  • Textbook of Medical Physiology: With STUDENT CONSULT Online Access (Textbook of Medical Physiology) by Arthur C. Guyton and John E. Hall (Hardcover - Sep 1, 2005)

Documentaries

  • [Al Fry] Hidden Bible Knowledge
  • [Al Fry] Hidden World History
  • [Alberto Villoldo] Munay Ki - great rites of initiation of the shamanic medicine way
  • [Alex Jones] ENDGAME - Blueprint For Global Enslavement (2007)
  • [Barrie Zwicker] The Great Conspiracy - The 9/11 News Special You Never Saw (2005)
  • [BBC Horizon] How to Make Better Decisions (2008)
  • [BBC Horizon] Is Alcohol Worse than Ecstasy (2008)
  • [BBC Horizon] What on Earth is Wrong with Gravity (2008)
  • [BBC Panorama] Sex crimes and the Vatican
  • [BBC TWO] Alternative Medicine - The Evidence
  • [BBC] Microchip
  • [BBC] Planet Earth
  • [BBC] The Death Of Yugoslavia
  • [BBC] Why Democracy Taxi to the Dark Side (2007)
  • [CBC] The Blue Buddha - Lost Secrets of Tibetan Medicine - Nature of Things
  • [CBC] The Fifth Estate - Spies, Lies, and Secret Weapons
  • [Daniel G. Karslake] For the Bible Tells Me So (2007)
  • [Dave Hunt] A Woman Rides The Beast - The Catholic Church And The Last Days (2006)
  • [David Icke] Revelations of a Mother Goddess
  • [Dokument Dun] Thin
  • [Dr Deagle] Connecting the Dots - Granada Forum (12-2006)
  • [Drew Heriot, Sean Byrne, Marc Goldenfein, and Damian McLindon] The Secret (2006)
  • [Eric Jon Phelps] Vatican Assassins - The Ultimate Conspiracy
  • [Fritz Springmeier] Undetectable Mind Control Lecture
  • [Gary Hustwit] Helvetica (2007)
  • [Hans Jenny, Peter Guy Manners, and Jonathan Goldman] Cymatics - Science Of Sound Vibrations on Matter
  • [Jed Riffe] Waiting to Inhale - Marijuana, Medicine and the Law
  • [Jerry Brunetti] Food as Medicine (2005)
  • [John Pilger] The War On Democracy (2007)
  • [John Steele] Geomancy
  • [League of Noble Peers] Steal This Film (2006)
  • [League of Noble Peers] Steal This Film II (2007)
  • [Matthew Ogens] Confessions of a Superhero (2007)
  • [Michael Tsarion] The Destruction of Atlantis
  • [PBS Frontline] The Medicated Child
  • [Peter Coyote] Out of the Blue - The Definitive Investigation of the UFO Phenomenon
  • [Project Camelot] Project Camelot Interviews (2007)
  • [Science Channel] 100 Greatest Discoveries
  • [Seth Gordon] The King of Kong - A Fistful of Quarters (2007)
  • [William Gazecki] Future By Design (2006)
  • Communis and the EU
  • The Freeman Perspective - Chemtrails - Clouds of Death
  • The Medical Aspects of Nuclear Radiation (2007)
  • Unit 731 - Nightmare in Manchuria (1998)
  • {National Press Club] The Disclosure Project (May 9th, 2001)