On Failing

I have to say this: Oftentimes, I am scared of failing, failing just because I didn't put all of my energies into the task at hand. To tell you the truth, I don't know if I should feel guilty. Just how am I going to discern that I didn't slack off? I hate this feeling that I feel inside. There seems to be a part of me that is not happy. I am desperate to have a meaning or purpose in my life. I don't care anymore what other people think. This is my life. They can't do anything about it. I just have to take control of what I have and may God do the rest. On what should I put my faith on? It is certainly not this world, for it is written that this world shall fade. Along with its destruction comes the destruction of the world and all that is physical or material. But what can I really do about the situation? I hate being in a dilemma. Why should there always be that risk? Is this part of what we call "God's plan"? Still, I don't know. Nevertheless, there is no point in deciphering the reasons behind this world. What you and I can do is to ensure that we leave our worthless selves and live it the way it was designed. Don't waste your time thinking about everything or just about anything. Nothing is done by thinking alone! Let us not forget the lives that were lost by the past generations. They didn't die for our extravagance. They died because they had faith in future--that the future will be better than the past. Even though they know that they can't change what has happened, they were wise enough to prevent it from happening again. And, as a rule, they documented their experiences to what we now refer as knowledge and literature.