Time for rebuilding

Lately, have you noticed my plummeting grades? Haven't you noticed that suddenly I'm not that intelligent person anymore? I am really in an uncomfortable situation. I feel dumb and numb. Won't somebody just please help me? It's more than skin-deep. It's really deep. I am getting emotional now. It's really hard when you don't have a friend, a friend that's willing to listen to your problems, heartaches, difficulties, mistakes, and stupidities. I am sad, really sad, for not being able to stand up on my own. As if I don't have balls. As if I'm castrated. My manliness was taken from me... by none other than me. Self-pity is such a bad thing. Unfortunately, I can't seem to avoid it. There's really no one else to blame but myself, and only I. For I have done my share of mistakes.

The time of rebuilding is at hand. I must limit the desires that befall me. If I desire something, then I must work hard for it. For if not, then I will just be overburdened by the realities of life. I will just suffer of being overworked and thus die young. I fail everyday. Yet I also succeed everyday. The law of the balance of life exists everywhere and is truly fundamental. The sum of everything is zero. Don't you believe me? In general, the more desire, the more suffering. Therefore, if you wish to avoid suffering the most, then ultimately limit your desires. For a successful and contented life, the limit of all desires must be equal to 0.