Nursery

I am currently sub-rotating at Nursery Charity, better known as NCHA. I am grateful to my batch mate Jeff for making a good endorsement. It was generally overwhelming because of the many new things, especially the fast-paced action whenever there was an imminent waiting pregnancy at hand. Even though it was such, I can confidently say that I was able to get used to it quickly.

My patient on deck at Pediatrics Ward died. Rest in peace, please. But wait. I wonder I those who die really end. As in do nothing. Are we really our bodies or is there something more? I believe there is. So instead of saying, "Rest in peace.", I think it's much more appropriate to say, "Have fun!"

I will stay today until I have had made my patient Baby Boy S. (12/16/2010) his running Pediatrics DS. It's better to be sure, isn't it? I owe myself, my family, and all of creation to offer my very best, as possible, without detriment to my personal well-being. Nothing is hard if you like it and I do like it. My motivation to make a running DS of Baby Boy S.: "Bye, bye, back to home as soon as possible. I believe it is best for the baby and mother and the rest of the family's well-being." Also, expenses would be minimized; resources optimized. =p

Act normal...I believe I don't have to act anymore. The play is over; life's resumed. What if the game that really matters is the lives were are all living right now? Then this only means that we do have to strive hard to do our very best, each and every time. What I do each and every time is the best, regardless of the standards of others or of the society.

I love myself, I really do. And with this follows, flows naturally, the love I have for all creation. I need not study know more about Love. I am Love. I am. Stop thinking, keep on doing. With the heart I have...The heart I have is enough guide to pull me through.

Self-Respect

It's high time that I paid myself the long overdue self-respect that it deserves. I backed-off from the role of 'the typical Joel', the Joel according to my group mates for the incoming UERMMMC House Staff 2010 on December 17, 2010. An individual is dynamic, ever-changing. It was unfair that I was already judged, being given the role as mentioned. I was torn being continuing with the role and backing out; I backed out.

I am currently reading Nelsons - Body Fluids and Electrolytes. It has been worthwhile. I discovered that it is not really that complicated. I don't have to fully understand everything I read during the first time I read it. I just have to keep on reading so as to reinforce my initial interest. I am looking forward to continue learning about very important and basic things in Medicine. Thinking and over-analyzing may have gotten the better of me. Goals should only serve as guides, and not cause undue obsession and/or compulsion.

This is my last duty day in Pediatrics Service Wards. The sub-rotation is generally feel good. All of the patients improved. We admit patients, treat, and monitor them. We help them cure themselves and send them home as happy kids. I am grateful for having been given the opportunity to aid them in their journey towards consciousness. Till we meet (if ever we meet) again. They seem like angels that busy themselves in their little affairs/games. I hope that they remain childlike, that they keep on dreaming and fulfill their owns dreams, however big these may seem compared to their currently small bodies.

I love and let go. I love and let go. I love and let go. Is it bad to be selfish? Language is a faculty of man and yet do him disservice at times. Some words are best to have never been created. I let go. I let go. I let go. I love you. I love you. I love you. We feel it both. We feel it both. We feel it both. I'm with you. I'm with you. I'm with you. We are one. We are one. We are one. I close my eyes. I close my eyes. I close my eyes. And I see. And I see. And I see. All that is. All that is. All that is.

Blogger's Rebirth

Yes. I'm back! I plan to quit making posts on Facebook just because it takes so much of my time and energy. I fully understand what I am giving up in the hope achieving something greater, larger than myself. Having a regularly updated blog appears to be more therapeutic than making those varied Facebook status messages.

So where is Joel right now?
> I'm still here, living in the only true time, the now. I am currently a clinical clerk at UERMMMC, rotating at Pediatrics. I am planning to take up Internal Medicine/Family Medicine/Community Medicine as my specialization. I still very much would like to pursue teaching and research studies.

Love life?
> I'm still very much in love with the world. I will act on the love that I have. I will have a girlfriend, or at least date in the next 3 months. I still have a crush on ER but I am no longer crazy about her, as in 'in love with love'. I came upon the realization that love manifests more if the one who's loving loves the Self first.

Studies?
> I plan on taking up my Internship at either Fort Bonifacio or Villamor Airbase. The foundation/fundamentals of medical knowledge is so important that it cannot be overlooked. I let go of the past and face what is now in front of me. I still have plans of topping the medical board examinations in August 2012. If you ask me, 'Why?', then I'll reply, 'Why not?'

Beliefs
> Beliefs are powerful. For a period of time, I tried to live without any beliefs. I then realized that it was wrong, better yet counterproductive in that I was letting go of using such a powerful faculty/ability. These are what I chose to believe in: Love, Truth

Nearing the end

Today is currently the second to the last day of my 2-month, roller-coaster Internal Medicine rotation. I am more or less the same person, well, at least still single...=p But seriously, I still like her; although I can say that I am much more relaxed. Love comes if it comes, but if it doesn't, life still goes on. I have given up all expectations with respect to other people. All I am sure about is myself. Am I afraid of being hurt? Hell, yeah! But I can't keep on being afraid. The heart of communication is being there where the other person is, wherever you actually you may be. I can very well say goodbye to my attitude of pleasing other people at my expense. Desires, wants, and needs just seem never to end. The fate of those who readily bow to the whims of others is despair. I am a young, healthy male, fully capable of having healthy, bright, vibrant, and playful children. I can't just throw away happiness for those who don't even care about me. Currently, my battle cry is "I have every fuckin' right to manifest." And if goodness is to manifest, what is there to be afraid of?

My immediate plans are as follows:
1. Enjoy myself by abandoning my conveniences in the dream of achieving something, that which approximates the true, the beautiful, and the wonderful.
2. Love all animals; even those people who behave like animals. (No offense to real-world animals.

My short-term plans are as follows:
1. Eat as a pure raw vegan.
2. Start daily 15-minute meditation TODAY while arousing and qHS.
3. Sleep for at least 3-5 hours a day; sleep by 9 PM. Set alarm clock at 1 AM.
4. Go to the neighborhood gym whenever I am not in a "Duty Status".
5. Clean room for at least 30 minutes.
6. Delete all needless files.
7. Have a medical topic to read about and ACTUALLY read about it.
8. Hold on to my principles each and every time.

My long-term plans are as follows:
1. Meet the love of my life again.
2. Realize my dreams of becoming the transplantation surgeon.
3. Research and publish in an international peer-reviewed journal.

Tao o Diyos

Noong kauna-unahan, tayo ang pumili na maging tao o Diyos, gayon din ngayon at magpakailanpaman.

UP PMHS: 55 after '55

Last night, 9/25/2010 (Saturday), I attended the Alumni Homecoming of my college organization, the UP Pre-Medical Honor Society (PMHS) at The Lounge (Little Asia & AMICI Building), Tomas Morato, QC at 7 PM. I came in at around 8:30 PM, just in time before the start of the program. It was a fun-filled night with various speeches from top-notch alumni physicians, video presentations, and dancing (as in a bar). I saw Dr. Fortun (forensics) and Ablan (urology). The history of the organization was reviewed from 1955 to 2004. Most of the speakers reiterated the reality of little or no freedom at all which prevailed during the martial law years (1972-1983). The many activities of the organization was shown such as free clinics, constitution study, carol fest, talent's night, SCC day, christmas party, sports fest, etc.

I got to chat with my batch mates and former orgmates...Ate Bev, Ate Daryl, Ate Dhoreen, Kuya Sonny, Jameez, Ruari, Cha, and Zshari. I found out that most of my biology block mates in UP Diliman were considering taking General Surgery, just like me. I am currently interested in taking General Surgery and then Transplantation as specialization. So why Surgery and Transplantation. It is primarily due to the medical dramas, Iryu 1 and 2 (Team Medical Dragon) and what happened to my mother (she had Diabetes Mellitus, Chronic Kidney Failure, and then died of stroke). I am still saddened by her apparently untimely and premature death. I want to be able to spare the families of my future patients the agony of losing someone so dear, kind, gentle, and helpful...A truly beautiful, graceful, graceful, and generous woman. Until her very last breath, she was still very much concerned with the sake of others.

Medicine remains to be a competitive field. As most of the consultants would say, "You must specialize!" I want to read or hit the books so speak for the sake, health, and well-being of my patients, as well as the for the accompanying market share and value. Everyone deserved to be given the best, utmost care and respect, whatever their current status in life may be. So far, I have upheld this, the virtue of benevolence, in my clinical clerkship.

Looking back, I rediscovered why I continued to take biology and then medicine. There is a lot of opportunity to help a lot of people who really need help. People are not completely blameless, but then they are also not completely helpless. If we help them help themselves, then they are able to become eventually self-sufficient.

"Truth I Pursue, Honor I Value, Life I Protect." This line summarizes what the organization is all about. Even if the application process was demanding in term of the time, effort, and emotions involved, I would still dare say that it was all worth it. It was the first time for me to join such a large organization of all adults, well at least presumably mature-minded people. I am happy to be involved in the development of the characters of bright students who are conversant in most topics, including myself. Just have fun in life, respect and communicate well with others, and give your very best in everything that you do.

I love PMHS. It is something na babalik at babalikan ko. Syempre basta't wala lang akong duty. Duty first! Magdadala na ako ng ready camera...Mas maganda talaga magblog with pictures. =p

Lil Red Notebook

Hello, cute and lil red notebook. I was interested in you because of your vivid, bright red color and your wonderful dimensions. I hope to make our challenging journey together fun and worthwhile. Things to do today: 1. Finish all 4-South paperworks with love 2. Love and smile at all sentient beings 3. Breathe love and work out 4. Lovingly decided that this will become my new diary 5. Lovingly decided to love "If it bothers you so much to pretend, then make a new truth." My personal checklist: 1. Charged cellphones 2. Alarm set at 7 PM 3. Charged laptop 4. Eat adequate amount of raw plants 5. Study any topic for 3 hours 6. Gym focus: abdominal muscles 7. Good grooming, hygiene 8. Breathe deeply, slowly 9. Be a smiley person "Love is mysterious. It has its own reasons hidden from man, hidden in man." Virtues 1. Truth 2. Benevolence 3. Forbearance "I wanted that person to be special. I wanted badly that person to be you." Change defined "Change is manifestation of the natural order of the universe."

My Goals in Life

1. Have no goals really! Well, I mean relax!

Back

It's nice to be back! =p

Psyched #1

I keep on declaring things which I do not push through with. I have often wondered what it is that is wrong with me. It was hard for me looking for what was wrong. Either:
A> Something is wrong with me. What is it?
B> Nothing is wrong with me.

A> Something is wrong with me.
Yes, definitely something is not right; something is wrong. But it is not limited to me. It includes me and all of creation. The outside, the environment, is just but an extension of oneself; it is an expression of the predominant thoughts, and thus attractions, one broadcasts by means of electromagnetic waves. It is when we are not truthful, it is when we keep and deny our true selves, that everything gets fucked real hard in a way which we do not enjoy; this may be likened to rape, forcing an intimate contact between parties which do not realize their true nature and thus are unable to mutually accept their deepest oneness.
What is it?
Borderline Personality Disorder: As Howard Zinn puts it, you can't be neutral on a moving train. Everything is moving forward. All of creation is moving forward; this is simply innate to it. I want to move forward with creation. I like to be able to contribute in a positive way in this plane. Somewhere along the way, I have been poisoned, and the first step out of this rut is the recognition of the situation and its gravity. It is of grave importance, it is a matter of life and death. Don't you remember that everything is connected; there is still no exception
Avoidant Personality Disorder: If the environment is just but myself which does not currently realize our oneness, then there is no reason that to fear. There is no reason to fear or to avoid encounter because of fear. Happiness does not co-existence with fear. Happiness is a relaxed state of being accepted for who one is, period.

B> Nothing is wrong with me.
It is now that I realized that there is nothing wrong. I think I have been thinking too much that something is not right. Right and wrong depends on a person's ideals and morality. There must be an innate order in all. That's why we are able to perceive beauty.

Whether it be an A or B, I feel that it does not really matter. What matters is that I accept myself for who I am and love all of those around me. Love, as I previously defined, is self-sacrifice without self-suffering. What is suffering? It is doing something which one does not want. No exceptions and as simple as that.

Cure

"Love is the only cure which needs no indications and has no contraindications. When we realize that we are love and thus the only cure..." -- Joel Duque

Excuses

"I'm sorry for being incorrigible; please forgive me. I will never run out of excuses for loving you." -- Joel Duque

Beauty

"Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. To me, you are beautiful and that is all that really matters." -- Joel Duque

Choice

"Choice has always been a sacred struggle between consciousness and desensitization." -- Joel Duque

Sexual alchemy

There seems to be no significant difference between single-blessedness and homosexuality. Their development are limited with the non-union to the opposite sex.

Sinapupunan

Oo, tama ka...Tumataba ako...Sa totoo lang, buntis nga ako...Dinadala ko sa aking sinapupunan ang ating anak...Itago natin siya sa pangalang cultivation energy...Located on my solar plexus...It's radiating from within...To the far reaches of the visible and unseen edges of the universe...I am so happy for being given the opportunity to take care of this energy...I know that this will guide me to victory, whatever the conditions may be!

Junior intern

I will be a junior intern this coming April 1, 2010. I am both grateful and excited for having been given this opportunity to be involved in the care of patients in the hospital. This is certainly love and I love it.

Conscious choice

"I have consciously chosen to believe in love for I am love; thus, I believe in myself." -- Joel Duque

After Eden

http://www.arnold-arre.com/aftereden/

Yesterday, I started reading After Eden, a graphic novel by Arnold Arre. It is mainly a love story about two people, living different kinds of lives who turned out to be childhood friends. They really love each other and don't care if other people see their affection for one another. I don't know if it is natural that people around them get jealous of this, even their friends. I guess that public display of affection is both a sharp and soft reminder to all of us of how existence was once was when we we're all intimately connected with the Source. A man completes a man in the same way that a woman completes a man. It is for this reason that human life is able to emanate from such union. Love is painful and is very much demanding. But I do get it now. If you are indeed in love, then one would not think twice in giving one's own life force in the hope of creation and productivity. It is from person's who practice cultivation which promise the most potential in terms of quality of delivery of the various goods and services which society deems important. I really wonder why the title of the work is After Eden. If Eden is the paradise, then is there something else beyond that? All I can imagine is the existence of another plane where an enlightened being will most likely be tested again with another set of criteria towards the path of perfection. Like a line in a graphing paper, what I imagine is this: All imperfection is imaginary; the world is perfect as it already is. All we have to do is enjoy and dance to the sound of the music. Let's all have a good time and care enough to make sure that others enjoy too in this journey which we call life.

Higher-self speaking...

If I run away from you, it does not mean that I do not like you. I like you; I like you so much that I turned my back on you. There are things in my life which I have to face first. After all, the planet is spherical; we will eventually meet each other someday. If it is written in the stars that we share a common future, then let it be.

Sexuality

"Heterosexuals and homosexuals are confused alike with respect to their real identities." -- Joel Duque

I am

"Knowing that I don't know is not enough. Knowing that I know is not enough. I can is not enough. So what is enough? I am." -- Joel Duque

Child-rearing

"Children are not failures but paths to perfection. In every single way, it is a shared burden. Have you done your part?" -- Joel Duque

Forgive

"Love is forgiving another person even if that person hasn't even asked for forgiveness." -- Joel Duque

Laws

"Laws are the greatest threat to civil liberties." -- Joel Duque

Truths

"There are simple truths and greater truths. Where you place your heart, there lies your innermost desires, those which you consider important. Are you not conscious of this?" -- Joel Duque

Not a feeling

"When I understood that love is not a feeling, it was then I realized that I love you." -- Joel Duque

Happiness

"Happiness is the true carrying capacity of all biological systems, including humans." -- Joel Duque

Sugal ng pag-ibig

Ang sarap magsugal...Kailan kaya tayo magsasabay...Kailan kaya tayo sabay na magsusugal ang ating damdamin...Gusto kong masaktan...Gusto ko talagang saktan mo ako...Para akong bata...Natututo ako habang kinakastigo...Kastiguhin mo ako ng iyong mga halik...Ipadama mo sa akin ang init ng iyong pag-ibig...Lahat-lahat handa kong ibigay sapagkat tinuruan mo akong magmahal...

Love and poker

"The game of love is like poker. I cannot and refuse to wait for my starting cards to get better; you may no longer be sitting in the same table when they do. I have to pay the raises pre-flop in order to see you longer and improve my chances. Timing is important; I should decide when to engage you and make my moves. And when all else fails, I go all-in; maybe it is enough to show that I am willing to lose all of myself. You can call me because you may sense that I was just bluffing. But one things for sure, my love for you is not a bluff. It is nice to win; nonetheless, I definitely had fun playing with you." -- Joel Duque

Gambling

"You are like gambling to me. I do not care whether I win or not. I give you my full attention simply because I enjoy being in the moment with you. You are my addiction." -- Joel Duque

Lies

"If the truth hurts, then try living a life of lies." -- Joel Duque

I like

"I like...You might think it's you but it's not you; it's me!" -- Joel Duque

Pagmamahal

"Susunod, pag nagmahal ako, magmamahal ako kahit na hindi ko naiintindihan. Tiyak naman akong hindi ko ito pagsisisihan." -- Joel Duque

Change

"Change comes with vulnerabilty; change at your own risk." -- Joel Duque

Exclusive high school

Coming from an exclusive high school, I think I get it now...They try to wash their hands by giving a junior and senior prom...

Deserving

Sometimes, I just feel that I do not deserve any of the things that happened in my life...Like having a great family.

But it's good to know that this is indeed far from the truth. We deserve everything that has happened, is happening, and will happen to us. This is a law of the universe, and is proven by the apparent passing of time!

Under attack

Hi blog, well you will have to be my friend...I have always told you things which are deep and truthful. My Facebook account is under attack from people who would want me to spill the beans or tell them who my crush is...I promise to stop posting anything there with respect to her. I wait, wait, and wait for the right time, okay? =p

Healthful food to taste

"Healthful food to eat --> Healthful food to taste --> Healthy taste buds --> Control of binge-eating --> Healthy body + mind + soul --> A step towards the path of consciousness" -- Joel Duque

Waiting

"You are Love. I'll be waiting for you to realize that we are but One. Until that time, all I can do is wait. I'll wait for you even if it takes forever." -- Joel Duque

Simply be

"Simply being is different from being lost in the moment. I enjoy and cherish this life so much so that I choose to live each moment consciously." -- Joel Duque

Medisina

"Para akong medisina, matututunan mo rin akong mahalin. Araw-arawin ba naman kita!" -- Joel Duque

Kabilugan ng buwan

"Para kang buwan ngayon gabi: maliwanag, maganda, bilugan, malayo dahil nasa kalangitan, ngunit malapit dahil nasa isip at puso ko." -- Joel Duque

Evolution

"If evolution has any lesson to offer, then it is to always move forward. Onwards, to victory!"-- Joel Duque

Eksamen

Hindi na ako magfefacebook at poker hanggang matapos ang mga eksamen magpakailanman. Top 1, asan na yung top 1? Wag kang mangangako kung hindi mo paninindigan!

Kung hindi

"Kung hindi ka magiging akin, hindi ako magiging sa iba habambuhay. Lilisan ako at pilit lilimutin ang Pilipinas, ang aking lupang tinubuan." -- Joel Duque

Unity

"If one is stuck with duality, then one cannot be truly free, for in truth, there only lies unity." -- Joel Duque

Constant self-improvement

"Contentment and constant self-improvement need not be mutually exclusive. I improve further because of gratitude and compassion." — Joel Duque

Boom

Nagpasabog ako ng bomba kanina sa commed trans...Hindi ko lang talaga makayanan na ang tinatago ko...=p

Owe children

"I owe my children their father and my choice of their mother." -- Joel Duque

CPCs

I think yesterday during surgery lecture was the 2nd time we passed attendance sheets. I think the 1st one was during surgery CPC. During the 1st one you gave me the sheet, this time I returned the favor. Our alignment was also diagonal! Today was the clinical pathology CPC. I think it is almost 2 CPCs apart. These coincidences make me fall for you more and more each day.

Control

"Control becomes unnecessary whenever the truth is understood." -- Joel Duque

Wanting

"Wanting implies lack. Simply being is a truth one should live by; it is the key to freedom." -- Joel Duque

Deadlines

"Deadlines are good; they tell us that we are alive." -- Joel Duque

Studying

"Studying is a virtue; it certainly must be a virtue!" -- Joel Duque

I do

"Whether or not I do, there is pain. It is best that I do something, anything. There is only one true moment and it is this moment!" -- Joel Duque

People change

"People don't change overnight; they change instantaneously." -- Joel Duque

Vegetable love

"You are like a plain, steamed vegetable...You can be naturally, spontaneously sweet!" -- Joel Duque

Let me be

"If I am happy, let me be. If I am sad, let me be. Let me have this vow of consciousness." -- Joel Duque

Conscious choice

"Love is a conscious choice to be happy." -- Joel Duque

Tunay na lalaki

"Higit na mahalaga kay sa pagiging tunay na lalaki ay ang pagiging tunay na tao." -- Joel Duque

Quick nap

"A quick nap dilutes one's unreasonable sadness." -- Joel Duque

Body

"If we give the body the respect it deserves, then it would cooperate." -- Joel Duque

Growth

"Growth always has a trade-off." -- Joel Duque

Utu-uto

"Ang matalinong naniniwala sa bobo ay mas masahol pa sa sira ulo." -- Joel Duque

Truth and knowledge

"There are those who die without knowing the Truth, die knowing It, those who live on, and those who apply their knowledge." -- Joel Duque

Love and reason

"The greatest love is without reason but not unreasonable." -- Joel Duque

Love and lust

"Love is full of suffering. Lust is devoid of it." -- Joel Duque

No dilemmas

"There are no dilemmas, only win-win decisions." -- Joel Duque

Eat my own words

"Sometimes, I have to eat my own words. Sometimes, they are delicious and nutritive." -- Joel Duque

Pain credits

"Each day, we are given a certain number of pain credits. It all depends on us how we spend them or whether we spend them at all. And if we push ourselves to our limits everyday, then we gain the bonus of small daily incremental pain credits which eventually make large payoffs." -- Joel Duque

Beautiful

Mama, you are beautiful! Thank you for giving me life and sustaining me these past few years. I wish you were still alive today...Sadly for me, that is not part of God's plan. I hope you are happy wherever you are. There is only one way to ensure this and that is through love. I am in love right now; as a matter-of-fact, I am ready to offer all that I am. I believe that I have a profound understanding of the workings of the universe which will definitely guide any relationship that I enter. Mama, please give me your blessings. I deeply and truly believe that you are still able to...For consciousness is energy, and thus cannot ever be destroyed. Nevertheless, I am sure that you'd approve of her too. Papa and Ate Nadia are supporting me in their own ways and talks with me. This past few months have been magical and mystical, beginning with my hospitalization at school before the 4th exam week. How should I say it? It has been laden with realizations. From before the time you died in the start of my summer vacation in 2009, this is the only time that I have been really, genuinely happy. I want to talk to you someday...And pay back the Power Hug you gave me just before you passed away. For now, I guess this blog of mine would have to suffice. I love you!

Without and within

"Love changes two worlds--the world without and the world within." -- Joel Duque

Understanding

"Understanding marks the beginning of the end of suffering." -- Joel Duque

Most common sense

"To love is the most common sense which appears to be paradoxical." -- Joel Duque

Alchemy

"Alchemy is more than turning external things into gold; it turns inwards." -- Joel Duque

Prepuce

"Prepuce: If you don't know me, please leave me alone!" -- Joel Duque

No shortcuts

"There are different tiers of knowledge. One suffers whenever one skips some learning." -- Joel Duque

Existence

"There is no cause or effect; there is only existence." -- Joel Duque

Here and now

"I am basically on my own until I get you to be with me in the here and now." -- Joel Duque

To the lady from another century

"I traveled centuries just to be with you again. It's great to know you're here too!" -- Joel Duque

Pagsusulit

"Kung isa akong pagsusulit at matalino ka naman, sasagutin mo ba ako?" -- Joel Duque

Tae

"Ang pag-ibig parang tae, dapat nilalabas!" -- Joel Duque

Pain

"I am so happy and grateful for everything, including being really disappointed. The pain that I feel means that I am improving!" -- Joel Duque

Karma

"Thinking of karma means you are thinking too much; just let go. The Infinite knows your heart's desire, and this will see you through!" -- Joel Duque

Beside the point

"Given a certain point, all others are, at best, beside the point." -- Joel Duque

Butterfly

"I was a caterpillar. I am a cocoon. I will be a butterfly!" -- Joel Duque

Dugo ng Tao

Magtanim tayo
Kahit na alam nating ito'y di biro
Diligan natin ang lupa
Diligan ng dugo ng tao
Masakit man ito
Tiyak na yayabong ang binhi
Wala ng iba pang makapapalit
Sa dugo ng tao
Pataba ng lupang tigang
Nawa'y pawiin mo
Ang uhaw na lupa
Uhaw ng 'sang milenyo
Huhugasan mo
Ang madungis na lupa
Dungis na dili ba't tayo rin
Ang may gawa
Ihanda mo na ang balisong
Ihanda mo na ang kalis
Igapos niyo na
Igapos na ako
Siguradong ako'y magpupumiglas
Susubuking makawala
Ako ay sasaksakin
Ako ay aalimurahin
At dudustahin
Ngunit 'di ako kikibo
Sapagkat sa aking pagkaunawa
Ako ay manghihina
Ngunit ito ay 'di pa rin sapat
Ako ay papaslangin niyo man din
Dumaan lang ako
'Di ako alam kung napansin
Anupaman ako'y babalik
Paulit-ulit akong babalik
Magkikita tayong muli
Ano ba ang silbi ng lahat ng ito
Sino ba ako at sino kayo
Ako ay natigilan
'Di ko alam kung ang sagot
Babalik na lamang ako
'Pag ako'y lumaki na
At muli kong babagtasin
Ang gubat na masukal
Hanggang sa ating muli
Sa ating muling pagkikita
Magsimula tayo sa ritwal
Magsimula tayo sa aking dugo
Handa na 'kong
Gitlan ng hininga

Self-love

"If the entire universe is the Self, what is there not to love? Tell me." -- Joel Duque

Breaks

"Too many breaks leaves many things undone." -- Joel Duque

Cure the world

"Know thyself and the be your best orthopsychiatrist. Curing oneself enables a physician to cure the world." -- Joel Duque

Velocity

"Velocity = Direction + Speed. Direction will get you somewhere; speed will get you there on time." -- Joel Duque

Tao

"Ang sarap maging tao, ang sarap-sarap maging tao! Ang sarap maging hayop, ang sarap-sarap maging hayop! Ang sarap maging hayop, ang sarap-sarap magpakahayop! Ang sarap maging tao, ang sarap-sarap magpakatao!" -- Joel Duque

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Naiinis na ako sa FaceBook, inaatake nila ang 'pagkatao ko'...I know this feeling of what's out there is but a reflection of what's inside...I just want to study now and see the realization of the Venus Project and spread awareness of the Natural Mind Project...Shit, gusto ko na talaga siya...I think I am thinking too much about such feeling...I have a life to live, you know, the life of a human being named Joel Duque...I am a currently a 3rd year medical student...I have to start acting like one right now...I beg to disagree, I have to start acting like a real physician NOW!

Terraforming

"If everything is a function of the environment, then we should control it as much as possible for optimization. The less randomization there is, the less the room for error." -- Joel Duque

Release

"There would come a time when I would have to give up everything, including myself, my whole being; that's why I am starting now!" -- Joel Duque

Hyperdrive

"Let's go together into hyperdrive...side by side, holding hands...attacking the root cause of the problem. The progression of this species depends on us; we came here, in this particular spacetime, for a reason. Let's remember and get moving!" -- Joel Duque

Population sizes

"Population sizes should not be reduced to simple arithmetic for they are the primary indicator of the stable and unstable equilibrium of the species." -- Joel Duque

Dakilang Pag-ibig!

Dakilang Pag-ibig!
'Tila 'Ka'y sadyang laspag na
'Bat ganoon ang mga tagalupa
Maya't maya'y ang sa 'Yo'y paggamit
Kahit 'di nila Ikaw nababatid?

Dakilang Pag-ibig!
Salamat sa 'Yo
Salamat sa 'Yong talinghaga
Salamat sa 'Yong handog
Salamat sa 'ming kapwa

Dakilang Pag-ibig!
Nawa'y patnubayan Mo kami
Bigyan kami ng talas ng isip
Upang aming maabot
Ang rurok ng 'Yong hiwaga

Vision

"The best way to know a person is not by taking off clothes but by closing one's eyes." -- Joel Duque

Religious freedom

"I am neither a theist nor an atheist. I would have been a theist if not for atheism. I would have been an atheist if not for metaphysics. So what am I? I am free." -- Joel Duque

Going? Gone!

"Think not of going to where you want to go for you're already there--at the speed of thought!" -- Joel Duque

Playing the game

"All other games lost their significance their ever since I started playing your game." -- Joel Duque

Monster killings

Why do we kill monsters? Is it because they are different? Is it because they are only part of a game? Is it because we have the ability to kill them? What if we were misinformed? What if they are really the same as us, just in another form? Have we not entertained the idea of them having the same emotions, aspirations, dreams, values, and consciousness? What if games are not simply games? After all, our brain can not distinguish reality from fantasy. We are clearly the victims of our own killings, even in this arena of monster games.

Ecstasy

"Ecstasy is much better than peace; the former deals with positive, creative energy while the latter is just neutral." -- Joel Duque

No basis

"It is most unfortunate to have dismissed as difficult something which one has not even tried." -- Joel Duque

Perversion

"Perversion is a perverted word which ostracizes the freethinkers and nonconformists." -- Joel Duque

Hibla ng pinya

"Walang tatalo sa matalas na dila kundi ang pagkain ng magaspang na hibla ng pinya." -- Joel Duque

Battleground

"Social engineering at the individual level lies at the heart of societal transformation. The self is the genuine battleground." -- Joel Duque

Miss 503

Hi, Miss 503. 'Yun 'yung bago mong name. Well, at least dito sa blog ko. Thanks sa merienda kaninang Surg CPC. Nabusog naman ako; ang sarap...Sana gumanda, tumalino, at sumaya ka pa araw-araw. After mamatay ng nanay ko, ngayon lang ako ginaganahang mag-aral uli ng mabuti...Nakakainspire ka kasi.

Corruption

"Power does not corrupt; the perception of division does." -- Joel Duque

Flux

"There is no such thing as net gain or loss; there is only flux." -- Joel Duque

Nice to meet you

"Meetings and journeys are complementary. The end of one starts the other." -- Joel Duque

Blasphemy

"Blasphemy is not claiming that one is God. It is rather claiming that you are the only one." -- Joel Duque

Crush...

''Kaw, Joel, sinong crush mo?' Sabi ko, "Torpe ako e." Gusto ko talagang sabihin, "Crush ko yung classmate natin...Kaya lang kasection niyo." Secret muna. Kaya lang, I wonder kung mabukas uli yung topic...I would divulge the information with the same group of people next time the topic arrives ha. I really wonder why I am so embarrassed of admitting what I generally want. In this case, maybe I know it would definitely reach her, haha. Pero okey lang naman kung sakali...Cute naman siya. I wonder if this girl from the other section already has a boyfriend. Miss, pwede ba akong mag-apply? I mean kahit na friends lang tayo okey na sa akin...Sulyap nga lang merienda na. Penge na nga ng cell number mo. :)

Subliminal sabotage

"Subliminal messages are being used to give us the perception of inadequacy. They usurp our birthright of free will by fooling us into systematically desensitizing the threshold of our arousal by increasing the amount of stimuli that we deliver through the things which we associate with pleasure. And so we want more and more of these things which we really neither need nor want. If left unabated, then we become lifeless and apathetic machines, bereft of compassion. And then what? We wonder why our world is full of sham and drudgery and deny having any responsibility for our current state. We have been given at least a life but what we do with it? We rape ourselves everytime have unconscious thoughts or do unconscious acts and compromise what we truly are--consciousness." -- Joel Duque

Help yourself

"Help yourself help yourself help yourself ad infinitum." -- Joel Duque

Binge eating

"Food is not the solution to the sadness of one who is not hungry." -- Joel Duque